get out of the room. I followed you, I pushed again, and here we are."
Nafai tried to think back over what had happened. Issib was right about the order of events. Only Nafai hadn't connected his need to get out of the house with anything Issib said. In fact, he couldn't for the life of him remember what it was that Issib had been talking about. "You pushed?"
"I know," said Issib. "I felt it, too, when I first started getting on the track of this a couple of years ago. I was playing around with lost words, just like that dancing bear thing. Making lists. I had a l&ng list of terms like that, with definitions and explanations after each one, along with my best guess about what each lost word meant. And then one day I was looking at a list that I thought was complete and I realized that there were a couple of dozen words that had no meanings at all. That's stupid, I thought. That's ruining my list. So I deleted all those words."
"Deleted them?" Nafai was appalled. "Instead of researching them?"
"See how stupid it can make you?" said Issib. "And the moment I finished deleting them, it came to me-what am I doing! So I reached for the undelete command, but instead of pushing those keys, I reflexively gave the kill command, completely wiping out the delete buffer, and then I saved the file right over the old one." , "That's too complicated to be clumsiness," said Nafai.
"Exactly. I knew that deleting them was a mistake, and yet instead of undoing that mistake and bringing the words back, I killed them, wiped them out of the system."
"And you think the Oversoul did that to you?"
"Nafai, haven't you ever wondered what the Oversoul is? What it does?"
"Sure."
"Me too. And now I know."
"Because of those words?"
"I haven't got them all back, but I retraced as much of my research as I could and I got a list of eight words. You have no idea how hard it was, because now I was sensitized to them. Before, I must have simply overlooked them, gotten stupid when I saw them-the way Father did when he was getting wrong ideas about the Oversoul's vision. That's how they got on my first list, but without definitions-I just got stupid whenever I thought of them. But now when I saw them I'd get that claustrophobic feeling. I needed air. I had to get out of the library. But I forced myself to go inside. It's the hardest thing I've ever done. I forced myself to stay and think about the unthinkable. To hold concepts in my mind that the Oversoul doesn't want us to remember.
Concepts that once were so common that every language in the world has words for them. Ancient words. Lost words."
"The Oversoul is hiding things from us?"
"Yes."
"Like what?"
"If I tell you, Nafai, you'll take off again."
"No I won't."
"You wtil? said Issib. "Do you think I don't know? Do you think I haven't had my own struggle this past year? So you can imagine my surprise when last night Elemak sits there in the kitchen and explains to us about one of the forbidden things. War wagons."
"Forbidden? How could it be forbidden, it isn't even ancient."
"See? You've forgotten already. The word kolesnisha"
"Oh, yes. That's right. No, I remember that."
"But you didn't till I said it."
That's right, thought Nafai. A memory lapse.
"Last night you and Elemak were sitting there talking about war wagons, even though it took me months to be able to study the word kolesnisha without gasping the whole time."
"But we didn't say kolesnisha."
"What I'm telling you, Nafai, is that the Oversold is breaking down."
"That's an old theory."
"But it's a true one," said Issib. "The Oversoul has certain concepts that it is protecting, that it refuses to let human beings think about. Only in the past few years the Wetheads have suddenly become able to think about one of them. And so have the Potoku. And so have we. And last night, hearing Elemak talk about it, I felt not one twinge of the panic."
"But it still made me forget the word. Kolesnisha,?
"A lingering residual effect. You remembered it this time, right? Nafai, the Oversoul has given up on keeping us away from the war wagon concept. After millions of years, it isn't trying anymore."
"What else?" asked Nafai. "What are the other concepts?"
"It hasn't given up on those yet. And you seem to be really sensitive to the Oversoul,