Mason (Carter Brothers #2) - Lisa Helen Gray Page 0,20

and I rub at my chest above my heart, trying to ease the ache there in my heart.

“I made it look like I was sleeping around. All of them tried, I even went to with one, I got so far, but I couldn’t do it. I’d wanted you for so long, dreamed about you, and then when I had you I couldn’t forget you. No other girl could ever compare to you. I’m so sorry for what I did. You’ll never realise how much.’’

“I feel so lost right now. How am I supposed to believe you never slept with any of them? What about the girl at the race track; the one Davis blackmailed to sleep with you?’’

“She was the only one I got close to sleeping with Denny and believe me, I only did it because when I looked at you, when I saw how much you hated me, I couldn’t handle it. I needed to erase it from my mind. I got drunk, but it wore off as soon as her mouth got around my cock.’’

“I don’t want to know specifics Mason. Christ!’’ I cry, standing up.

“Shit! Sorry. I just needed you to understand Denny. I never did that to you.’’

“But I felt everything like you did do it to me, Mason. I had no one to talk to about the baby. No one I could confide in enough to trust. After the night we shared, and the way you treated me like a little kid after made everything harder. I had all sorts of scenarios playing through my mind. Like what if I told you and you told me to get rid of it, or that you blamed me for trapping you. I don’t want that for you, Mason. You had hurt me enough. Then when Harlow texted me telling me she had told you, I panicked and changed my number. Do you know that when I got the letter summoning me to court to testify I had a panic attack? Yeah, all because I was worried you and your family would hate me, that they’d make me go get an abortion,’’ I cry, tears falling from my eyes as I cover my stomach protectively.

“Denny,’’ he calls standing up. He grabs my shoulders stopping me from pacing. “I would never have asked you to abort the baby. If anything I spent the whole two and a half months worried I’d never see you again or you would abort the baby. I would never have had any way of stopping you doing it either. We’re in this together. I know it was shit from the start, but we can get through this.’’

“What if we can’t? What if you change your mind and I wake up only to have my heart ripped apart?’’

“Then move in with me. Let me show you how wrong you are; let me show you how good we are together and how sorry I am. I never meant to hurt you. I was trying to prevent that from happening,’’ he grunts, his hands shaking as he places them over my large bump. The baby takes that moment to kick at Mason’s hand and he chuckles, looking down at my stomach in wonder and love.

“I don’t know what to do,’’ I whisper honestly, scared out of my mind that he will hurt me again. He’s all I’ve ever wanted and not to sound creepy, but I even saved my virginity just for him. I wanted him to be the one who owned me, who I remembered for the rest of my life. It’s why I always told people I’d never say no to him, even if it was for one night. I’d take anything I could get from him. I guess I never expected that one night to be as beautiful and amazing as it was. Nothing could ever compare to the night we shared together.

“Will you at least think about it?’’ he asks sadly, his eyes full of sorrow.

I nod my head, yes and feel the loss from him as soon as he moves his hands away from my belly. I nearly protest and reach out for his hands to place them back, loving the feel of his warm hands touching my skin.

“I’m going to get going and let you get some rest, it’s getting late. Ring me if you need me and please Denny, please think about it.’’

“I will, I promise.’’

With that we say our goodbyes and I lock up behind him for the