look at the moon, fat and bright and cold, and wait for daybreak.
5.
“Excuse me? Good morning. Hi. I need you to run a sample for me.”
“Yeah. Well, that’s what we do. Gimme a second, all right.”
“I need you to run it right now.”
“Didn’t I just say, give me a second?”
This is the assistant to the assistant that Fenton warned me about, the individual now running the state lab on Hazen Drive. He’s young and disheveled and late for work, and he is looking at me like he’s never seen a policeman before in his life. He stumbles toward his desk, gestures vaguely at a row of hard plastic orange chairs, but I decline.
“I need these done right away.”
“Dude, dude. Give me a damn second.”
He’s clutching a bag of doughnuts, grease staining its bottom, and he looks bleary eyed and unshaven and hungover.
“Sir?”
“I just walked in the door. It’s like ten in the morning.”
“It’s ten forty-five. I’ve been waiting since nine.”
“Yeah, well, the world’s about to end.”
“Yes,” I say. “I heard.”
Tonight it will be one week since Peter Zell was killed, and at last I’ve got a bite on it. One piece. One idea. My hands tap on the toxicologist’s desk while he breathes open-mouthed and settles heavily into his rolling chair, and then I place my sample on his desk. A vial of dark red blood drawn from the heart of Peter Zell, which I removed this morning from the back of my freezer and zipped in the insulated box I use for my lunch.
“Dude, come on. This isn’t tagged.” The functionary lifts the vial to the pallid halogen light. “There’s no sticker on it, no date. This could be chocolate syrup, man.”
“It’s not.”
“Yeah, but, this isn’t procedure, Officer.”
“The world’s about to end,” I say, and he looks at me, sour.
“It has to have a sticker, and someone’s gotta order it. Who ordered it?”
“Fenton,” I say.
“Seriously?”
He lowers the vial, narrows his red-rimmed eyes at me. He scratches his head, and a drift of dandruff tumbles onto the desk.
“Yes, sir,” I say. “She told me that this place is a mess. That orders are getting lost all the time.”
I’m on thin ice. I am aware of that. I can’t help it. The guy is looking at me, a little fearfully, it seems like, and I realize that my fists are clenched, and my jaw is tight. I need to know if there was morphine in this blood. I need to know if Naomi Eddes is telling me the truth. I think she was, but I need to know.
“Please, friend,” I say quietly. “Please run my blood. Just run it.”
* * *
“Brother?” calls a bespectacled middle-aged man with a beard, as I walk from the parking garage across School Street toward headquarters, turning over possibilities in my head, laying out my timeline. “Have you heard the good news?”
“Yes,” I say, smile politely. “I sure have. Thanks.”
I need to get inside, tell my colleagues what I’ve worked out, determine a plan of action. But first I’ve got to stop in Wilentz’s office, get the results of the search I called him for at 8:45 this morning. But the bearded religious man holds his ground, and when I look up I see that they’re out in force this morning, a thick flock of the religious, long black coats, smiling in all directions, wielding their tattered pamphlets.
“Be not afraid,” says a plain woman who appears before me, her eyes mildly crossed, dots of red lipstick on her smiling teeth. The others are all dressed similarly, three women and two men, all beaming rapturously, all holding thin pamphlets in gloved fingers.
“Thanks,” I say, no longer smiling. “Thanks so much.”
It’s not the Jews, the Jews have the hats. It’s not Jehovah’s Witnesses, the Jehovah’s Witnesses stand there quietly holding aloft their literature. Whoever it is, I do what I always do, which is look at my feet and try to keep moving.
“Be not afraid,” says the first woman again, and the others form behind her in a ragged semicircle, blocking me like a hockey goal. I take a step back, nearly stumble into the street.
“I’m not afraid, actually. Thanks so much, though.”
“The truth is not yours to refuse,” murmurs the woman, pressing the pamphlet into my hand. I look down at it, just to avoid her God-glazed eyes, and I scan the bold red-outlined text: IT IS SIMPLY TO PRAY, the cover says on the top, and the same along the bottom: IT IS SIMPLY TO PRAY!
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