“It’s my fate,” he said.
“I found out some fate too,” she said, “since I saw you. I got the lab results.”
He looked up.
“Shuying is not Matt’s child.”
Implications tumbled across his face. “That’s good for you,” he said.
“Yes. Strange, but good.”
“Strange how?”
“It’s the end of Matt. Truly the end.”
“That happened a while ago,” he said.
“I know.” She looked at him. His dark eyes were closed, and he was pressing his fingers to the side of his head. “Are you okay?”
“I’m fighting a headache. Please,” he said, “eat.”
She took small bites from the plates and nibbled at them, but he, with every passing moment, looked worse. His eyes took on the unmistakable crinkle of nausea. Then of course she could not eat either. The appeal of the food drained away. She put down her chopsticks. “Sam,” she said. He winced at her voice. “What is it?”
“A migraine, I think. I haven’t had one in so long, since I was a kid. I didn’t think I’d ever have one again.” It seemed to hurt him to speak.
“Look what happened tonight,” she pointed out.
He made the smallest movement of assent with his head.
“What helps?” she said, her voice soft.
“Lie down,” he said, with effort. “In a dark room, quiet — if I can fall asleep, even for a little while, it’ll be over.”
“Let’s go,” she said, and signaled the waiter for a check. She paid and then stood up and walked behind him and slid her hands underneath his armpits. He shivered when she touched him. “Stand up,” she said gently. “I’ll help you get home.”
This promise seemed to go through to the part of him which could still respond, and he rose with her, walking steadily out even as he kept one hand over his eyes. “It’s not dangerous, is it?” she asked, and he managed to shake his head. Relieved, she raised her hand for a taxi.
One pulled over and she got him into the back seat, then gave the driver her approximate pronunciation of the intersection next to Sam’s house. She said it wrong, no doubt, but it always got her there. Now when Sam heard it he made a twitch of a smile through his pain. He uttered a few words of the guttural Beijing burr and the driver nodded. Then he sat, still as a stone, eyes closed, every sound they heard as they drove through the streets seeming to magnify his pain. Maggie could almost see his head throbbing. First losing; now this. She would help him get home, to quiet and darkness. That was all she could do.
At his gate he fumbled in his pocket and brought forth the key. She unlocked the gate and then relatched it behind them. She slipped the key back in his pocket. She felt the knob of his hipbone. With her other hand she held his elbow, guiding him. He could barely walk. I know. Just a little farther.
To get to his room she counted off the three steps up to the verandah. Inside the half-glass door she steered him across the floor and to his bed. He lay down slowly, gingerly, not wanting her to touch him, cringing even when she unlaced his shoes. She turned off all the lights, which made him exhale in relief.
She wanted a wet towel. The closest bathroom that she knew of was across the court in the restaurant’s main dining room. Just inside the door, she found a switch that made the white, lotus-shaped lampshades in the room spring to light. She walked across the dark, liquid-looking tiles to the small restroom, soaked a towel in cold water, wrung it, and walked back.
When she reentered his room he was lying still. She stepped quietly. All his attention was turned inward. She came quietly to the bed and, not wanting to startle him, touched him softly with her fingers first, above the brow. His head made a tick in response. She laid the cloth on him, first one end, so he could feel the cold wetness, then all the way across. He looked grateful. He reached up and pressed it to his temples. Then one of his hands came out and found one of hers, and quickly, naturally, their fingers laced together. He gave her a squeeze of thanks. Then he withdrew and folded his hands on top of his chest, motionless, the way he had been holding them.
She eased back. Quiet. Silence. She wanted him to fall asleep. Three steps from the bed was