“Yes, cool,” I said and opened my eyes then turned to my bowl, dumping some berries in and setting the rest in the container aside.
I looked at Max who was watching me closely, his face carefully blank but his eyes alert and asked, “Where’s my granola?”
“Cupboard with the oatmeal,” he answered and I turned there.
“I’ve got a brother,” Mindy shared. “We’re close but he lives in Seattle now, which is a bummer sometimes and not a bummer others ‘cause he can be kinda, in my life. YouknowhatImean?”
Yes, I knew what she meant. I knew if her brother knew that she was carrying on with a mountain man Lothario who was old enough to be her much older brother, then her real, Seattle dwelling brother would be in her life.
I didn’t say this, instead I said, “Of course.”
“You close with your brother?” she asked.
I poured granola on my berries then set the box down and answered, “I moved to England permanently because of him.”
“Yeah?” Mindy prompted.
“Yes,” I said, spooning out my yogurt and not measuring my words, not even knowing why I was speaking at all. “He was in the Army, sent to Afghanistan. When he was there, a bomb blew his legs off.” I heard Mindy gasp and I felt something coming from Max but I was impervious, like I was in a different world. “My father, who is not a nice man, turned his back on his golden boy when he felt he was no longer…” I hesitated then said, “Golden.” I shook my head at the still painful memory and put the top on the yogurt. “His fiancée broke things off with him and he was having trouble adjusting. So I moved to England to help.”
There was silence as I mixed my fruit, granola and yogurt and I turned to face the kitchen. When I did I saw they were both staring at me. Well, Mindy was, it was more like Max was watching me, closely.
Mindy broke the silence, saying quietly, “Jeez, Nina, I’m sorry. He okay now?”
“No,” I told her bluntly, looking right at her. “Charlie never adjusted. He committed suicide three years ago.”
“Holy crap,” Mindy breathed and I watched the color drain out of her face.
“That pretty much sums it up,” I told her.
“Mins, do me a favor. Go upstairs, get yourself one of my t-shirts to wear into town, yeah?” Max said and Mindy’s eyes moved to him.
She also saw him watching me, how he was watching me, her body jolted and she hopped off the stool.
“Yeah, right, um… a shirt…” she hesitated, her eyes going back and forth between Max and me.
“Just lose yourself for awhile, okay?” Max ordered, not taking his eyes off me.
She didn’t answer or maybe her answer was her skip-dancing away.
I looked at Max and took a bite of my breakfast.
“What was that about?” Max asked, not moving toward me.
“What?” I asked back, my mouth full, well beyond thinking it rude to speak with my mouth full.
“Closed up tight for two days, you share a tragedy and you do it like that?” Max asked and it dawned on me that he looked angry. “What’s that about?” he demanded to know.
“Mindy was asking,” I explained after I swallowed.
“You didn’t have to tell her like that,” Max returned.
“Oh, sorry, Max,” I said, my voice tinged with sarcasm. “Does she have a delicate disposition? Should I have shielded her from that?”
“Yeah, considerin’ she was raped three weeks ago and her boyfriend’s bein’ a f**kin’ dickhead that would have been good.”
I felt every cell in my body cease moving and I stared at him.
Then I whispered, “What?”