And there it was again. Now I was inviting Max’s deeper involvement in my life. What was wrong with me?
“What’s all this?” Cotton asked and Mom moved toward him, deciding she would stop fawning and start flirting (innocently, which was Mom’s way and Steve thought it was annoyingly hilarious or hilariously annoying, I couldn’t ever tell which) and hooked her arm through his.
“Coffee first, you need at least coffee before any conversation commences about Lawrence Sheridan,” Mom told him.
They started walking to the front door, everyone moving in that direction, when Max’s head turned toward the road then everyone’s heads turned to the road. This was because three cars were speeding up it.
I stared at the racing convoy. Brody’s Subaru, followed by Becca’s sporty, red, mini-SUV and trailing was a police SUV.
“What now?” Max muttered as he slung an arm around my shoulders and headed us both down the steps. For my part, without much choice, I wrapped my arm around his waist and hooked my thumb in his side belt loop.
Brody stopped his Subaru on a spray of gravel and was out of it practically before it came completely halted.
“You ain’t answerin’ your cell and your line’s f**kin’ engaged,” he accused Max the instant he cleared the door.
“What –?” Max started but Brody interrupted him.
“You seen Mindy?” he asked, his eyes were locked on Max but I felt something grip my insides, something vicious.
“No, why?” Max answered, I heard his tone had an edge and watched Becca pull in behind Brody’s Subaru.
“She call?” Brody went on. He’d walked swiftly and come to a stop in front of Max and me. His face was a stony mask of worry.
“No, Brody, what’s happening?” Max replied. His body had gone tight and alert at my side.
“You?” Brody turned to me. “See or hear from her?”
I shook my head and said, “No.”
“Jesus, Brody, what the f**k’s happening?” Max asked, his voice getting hard, not with anger, with what I saw in Brody’s face.
Brody reached behind him and pulled a folded piece of paper out of the back pocket of his jeans as Becca made it to us and Jeff was jogging up.
“Slipped that under the door to her apartment while I was out this mornin’,” Brody told Max as he handed him the paper.
But I was staring at Becca’s face and Becca was staring at the paper like it was going to grow claws and strike out at her and that grip on my insides not only tightened, it twisted.
I forced my eyes away from Becca, looked down at the paper in Max’s hand and read.
Brody,
I know what you’re going to think but you don’t know.
I can’t get clean.
And I need to get clean.
Every time I think I can go back to who I was before, I think I can forget, I think I can go forward, it fills my head and I remember how dirty I am.
I need to get clean.
And I know how.
After last night, I know I can do it. I’ve been thinking about it and no time seemed to be the right time but I know I can do it now.
You told me you were happy in your job, you love Seattle and Mom and Dad are moving to Arizona and they’ve wanted to do that for so long. And Max found Nina and she’s sweet and they’re happy together. So I can do it now, everyone I love is happy. I know now it’s all good.
We had such a great night last night, the perfect ending, now I can go.