become all too common: excitement and fear. I know eventually one of them will win the battle between the two, and I’m either going to settle into this, or run for my life. Right now, however, the combination of the two mixes into a heightened sense of arousal. It’s all so new to me. The money, the power, the love—all of it is addicting, and I feel like I’m becoming strung out. Something in the back of my mind screams for me to quit, but I can’t.
Even when I know I should be saying no, and running away, I think there’s something in me that likes it. All of it: the excitement, the love, the fear. I like it all. I want it all. I don’t know what I have inside of me that makes me feel this way, but whatever it is, I like that too.
“What is all this, Dominic?” I ask, doing my best to fight back a smile.
“Every member of The Family has to kick up to the boss every month,” he says, looking down at the stacks of cash. “This is their first payment to me.”
“So, they’re paying you just for being the boss?”
“That’s right. Perks of being the boss, babe.
“How much is it?”
“I don’t know. I don’t even care. This is why I can go legit and keep heat off of me. I’m gonna drop all of my rackets off to other guys in The Family, and everything with my name on it will be legal now. I run the casinos and rake in what The Family kicks up to me every month. There won’t be any heat from St. Louis PD or the FBI, because I won’t be attached to anything illegal. I’m untouchable.”
“This is fucking crazy, Dominic,” I say again, because it’s all I keep thinking.
“Yeah, it is,” he agrees as he wraps his arms around my waist from behind, and nuzzles my neck. “You know what else is crazy? Me . . . about you.”
“Aww, look at you being incredibly corny for me. How sweet.”
“I know it’s corny, but it’s true,” he says into my ear. I feel the warmth of his mouth on my skin and I become weak in the knees for him. “I’ve loved you since I was eleven years old, and nothing comes before you, Alannah. Nothing. And now that I’ve been put in this position, nothing can stand in our way. You and me are gonna rule this fucking city. Because I’m the kingpin, and you’re my queen.”
He kisses me on the neck again, and I let my head fall backwards to give him more room to work. He licks my skin and heat spreads throughout my body, warming me up in all the right places.
Dominic pushes me forward and I fall onto the stacks of money as he starts to pull down my pants. I feel hot in a way I’ve never felt before as I hear him undoing his pants and ripping open a condom wrapper. I bend over and give him access to all of me, as I lay my face on top of the money and breathe it all in. It’s like a scene from a gangster movie, as Dominic slides himself inside of me and fucks me on top of the stacks of cash. He thrusts hard and deep, like he’s been waiting all day to do it—like his newfound power has given him the hardest, most sensitive erection of his life, and he can’t hold back any longer.
I let him do it, because I love it. I love feeling his skin slam against mine, and I love his sweat dripping onto my back as I lay on top of the money. I grab it and squeeze as the orgasm hits me like a freight train, and I smile as Dominic flips me over and continues giving me everything I need, right here on top of more money than I care to count.
I know it’s dangerous, I know some would say it’s wrong. They may even say I’m stupid for staying with him. People may judge me and tell me how bad of an idea this is. Those people don’t understand, and I don’t need their approval.
I’ve known Dominic since I was eleven—that’s fourteen years of my life, and there’s no erasing that. Like I said before, when it comes to Dominic, the rules change. So, everyone can save their judgements.
I didn’t have a choice when I was fifteen. I had to