was late. I could tell you were mad, so I started to explain, but you just”—he waves his hand in mimicry of the queen of England—“waved me off. You didn’t want to hear it. In fact, I believe your exact words were ‘I don’t want to hear it.’”
“But…! But that doesn’t mean I didn’t want to hear it!”
He chuckles. “You do know how language works, right?”
“Oh, shut up.” I kick him under the table.
His chuckle turns into an outright laugh. “All right, all right. Maybe I should have tried harder. But you were … I mean, come on. You pissed me off, too. I thought, if you won’t bother to give me a chance, why should I try?”
“Because we were supposed to be partners!”
His smile vanishes and he gives me a look that’s like a silent reality check. “Prudence Barnett. You and I were never partners, and you know it.”
I want to argue with this statement. I do.
But … I can’t.
We were never partners. It’s the truth.
But that’s as much his fault as mine. I clench my teeth, thinking back to those horrible moments when I realized he wasn’t going to be there for our presentation. That he had ditched me, on that most vital of days.
“You couldn’t even be bothered to show up for our presentation,” I say darkly. “After I … I practically begged you to be on time. And you couldn’t even do that.”
“The center was shorthanded that day. My mom needed me to help out.”
But I needed you, too, I want to say. But I can’t, not to him. Instead, I bite the inside of my cheek and look away, staring down the sidewalk. The memory of that morning brings back the same anger, the same dread, and Quint must be able to tell that this argument is different, because when he speaks again, his voice has a tinge of concern behind it.
“Look, I knew you’d be fine. You’re…” He trails off, then gestures at me. One hand circling in the air.
I return a cool gaze to him. “I’m what?”
“You’re good!” he says with an uncomfortable laugh. “You’re, like, the best presenter in class. You didn’t need me.”
“But I did!” I yell.
Startled, he leans back in his seat.
I exhale harshly through my nostrils. My hands have started to shake. I need him to understand. All the other times he was late? Fine. Whatever. I can deal with it. But that day. That day. It was a betrayal. Doesn’t he get that?
“I hate speaking in front of people,” I start, but then I pause. I shut my eyes tight and give my head a quick shake. “No, that’s not … Once I’m up there, it’s fine. But beforehand? Thinking of how everyone will be watching me? It’s terrifying. The only reason I can do it is because I practice and practice and practice, and remember? I’d told you that we should get together and practice the speech beforehand, and you said you were too busy, even though you obviously just didn’t want to spend any more of your precious time on it, or maybe you just didn’t want to spend any more time with me. Which is—I get it, whatever.” I wave my hands through the air. “But I can’t just wing it like you can! So I had to do it all myself. I had to plan the speech without you, I had to rehearse without you, but at least … at least I thought you’d be there when the time came. I thought you’d bring our papers and then people wouldn’t be staring at me, and also, you could … you know. Do the thing you do.” It’s my turn to gesture vaguely at him. “Make people laugh. Put them at ease. Then I could give our presentation, and it would be great. Except you weren’t there! And realizing that you weren’t going to be there? It was awful!”
I finish.
I’m not really finished. I could go on. The way he interrupted the speech. The way he took his sweet time handing out the papers. But my eyes are starting to prickle and I don’t dare keep talking.
I can’t look at him, so I stare at the table instead, scratching my temple with the pen.
Only when Quint laughs, which is as infuriating as it is unexpected, do I realize I’ve used the ink end and just scribbled on my face. I grimace and rub at it with my fingers.
“I meant to do that,” I mutter.
“Trendsetter,” he