and they don't much care which."
"'Course that's what Arnie says."
"And I'm a gullible guy," I said.
"Aren't we all," Corsetti said.
"Lionel let the shooter in?" I said.
"Apparently," Corsetti said. "No sign of forced entry. No sign of socializing, either, no wineglasses, no coffee cups. Bed was made. Cleaning people say he normally left it on made on the day they came, so they could change the linen and make it."
"So he didn't sleep in it last night," I said.
Corsetti nodded, looking down at the corpse.
"Lionel probably slept right here last night," he said. "You run into April, you'll let me know."
"You bet," I said.
62
I got home from New York around two in the afternoon. I stood for a while and enjoyed it. The silence in my apartment. The lack of clutter. The mine-ness. I looked at Susan's picture on my mantel. She'd be with patients until five today. Then she had a seminar she was giving at Harvard. Tomorrow she was mine. I went into the bedroom and unpacked. At quarter to three, Hawk showed up and we sat at my kitchen counter and had a beer.
"Where is April?" I said.
"In the mansion," Hawk said. "I stopped by, told her I was in the neighborhood. See if she was okay."
"She okay?"
"Oh, yeah," Hawk said.
We were quiet. Hawk's face showed nothing. But there was something.
"What?" I said.
"I think she have a new man in her life," Hawk said.
"Who?"
Hawk studied the label on the beer bottle. Blue Moon Belgian White.
"How come this Belgian stuff brewed in Denver?" he said.
"Nothing is as it seems," I said. "Who's the new man?"
Hawk smiled. There was always something radiant about Hawk's smile. It came so suddenly and passed so quickly, and yet seemed so genuine in its short span.
"Me," Hawk said.
I was silent for a moment.
Then I said, "Oh, Christ."
"Yep," Hawk said. "She say since she first saw me she attracted."
"Isn't everybody," I said.
"True," he said. "She say she tried not to let herself feel that way, but she wasn't strong enough. She suggested carnal relations."
I waited.
"I tole her I tried to take Thursdays off," Hawk said. "Rest up for the weekend."
"How'd she take that?"
"Sort of rattled her," Hawk said. "But she kept her focus. She say, 'Okay, let's have dinner tomorrow.' "
"What does she want?" I said.
"You saying she might not mean it?" Hawk said.
"She may mean it, but it's been a long time since she did it for love," I said.
"Been a long time since she knew somebody like me," Hawk said. "Plus, she say she have a dream, and she tell me she want to share that dream with me, with a man like me strong enough to believe in dreams, strong enough to make them come true."
"Yeah," I said, "that would be you."
"She tell me about Dreamgirl, like I never heard of it, and about how everybody keep trying to stop her and keep betraying her but how she won't give up and all we need to be happy is to be together and support each other."
"She mention me at all?" I said.
"She did," Hawk said.
"She love you better than me?"
"She didn't actually say so, but I able to surmise it," Hawk said.
"Anything specific?"
"She ask me to kill you," Hawk said.
I drank some beer.
"So that's what she wants," I said.
" 'Pears so," Hawk said. "Plus, of course, she love me."
"She say why she might want you to kill me?"
"She say you won't leave her alone. That you want to control her like her daddy did and keep her a child and won't let her achieve her dream."
"Damn," I said. "And here I thought it was just tough love."
"Parenting is hard," Hawk said.
"Did you agree?" I said.
"I tole her we could talk about it over dinner."
"So you haven't decided yet," I said.
"Actually, I have," Hawk said. "I can't kill you. Ain't nobody else can stand me."
"Good point," I said.
63
I sat with Hawk in his car, half a block from the mansion, looking at April's front door.
"You talk with Susan 'bout April?" Hawk said.
"No."
"You think you might want to talk with Susan 'bout April?" Hawk said.
"No."
"She knows about stuff like this," Hawk said.
"She does."
"But?"
"But since April has decided to have me killed, Susan's objectivity will be too compromised," I said. "Won't matter what she knows."
"Unlike you and me," Hawk said.
"We're used to having people decide to kill us."
"And not being able to," Hawk said.
"So far," I said.
Hawk turned his head to look at me.
"Really upbeat today," he said.
I shrugged.
" 'Spose we can't just kill her