hands down his hips, then ran my fingertips down the inside of his thighs. “I used to fantasize about you. I tried not to. I’d start imagining someone else, anyone else, but it always turned into you. I’d close my eyes and remember what you smelled like, what you tasted like. Sometimes it wasn’t enough, and I’d call your office and listen to your voice on the machine. It never sounded like you—not the real you—but if I concentrated just right, and tuned out the words, I could hear your voice, and that always worked.”
“I used to see you,” he said, tugging my shirt out of my jeans. “Everywhere. The street, the office, at home, even sitting beside me in the car. Out of the corner of my eye I’d see something and, for a second, I’d forget you were gone and I…”
He inhaled sharply and buried his head against my shoulder. After a moment, he kissed the side of my neck, and started pushing down my jeans.
“Sometimes it was a smell,” he murmured. “The smell of a food we’d eaten or a place we’d been. Other times it was a laugh. I’d swear I heard your laugh, and I could see you there, in bed, grinning at me, head turned just so, hair falling over your breasts.” Another sharp inhale, and he brushed his fingers along my hair, tickling it over my breast. “That’s what did it for me. Hearing that laugh. Sometimes at the most inconvenient times. But, once in a while, that wasn’t enough.”
He traced his fingers down my sides, and across my stomach, inching lower. “I found one of your apartments once. I stayed away until you were gone. After you moved out, I went there, just to…” He shrugged, eyes lowered. “Just to look. To be there. I found a pillowcase you’d left, fell behind the bed. I could still smell you on it. That’s what I used, when remembering wasn’t enough.”
I put my arms around his neck. “I want you back, Kris. For now and forever.”
He lowered me to the dock.
Afterward, we stretched out, enjoying the faint heat of the sun and the slap of the surf. Kristof’s fingers slid up my thigh, then stopped. He frowned and looked down at my leg. His frown deepened. I followed his gaze to a paper-thin raised welt encircling my thigh where Trsiel’s sword had passed through.
I told him what had happened.
Kristof shook his head. “That man has serious sword-control problems.”
I sputtered a laugh. “You think?”
“If he’s not slow getting it out, he’s sticking it in where it doesn’t belong.”
As my laugh died, I pressed my face against his shoulder. After a moment, Kristof stroked the back of my head. “What else happened?”
Until now, I’d said nothing about Trsiel’s hints that my quest was really a stepping stone to angel-hood. When I told Kristof that, I expected him to burst out laughing. I guess I should have known better. Instead, he listened, then gave a slow nod.
“That makes sense,” he said.
“It does?” I smiled. “I swear, Kris, you’re the only person in the universe who could hear that I’m a candidate for angel-hood and say, ‘That makes sense.’”
“But it does. You may not be the most obvious choice, but if they haven’t caught this Nix in over a hundred years, I’d say the obvious choices aren’t working out so well.” He paused, thoughtful. “I know this may not be the path you had in mind for your afterlife, but you may want to give the offer some serious thought. You’ve been…well, you’ve been better than I’ve seen you in a long time, happier, more…there. First, of course, you’d have to have a very long talk with the Fates, find out exactly what this deal would entail.”
“I—I’ve done that, Kris.”
His brows arched.
I managed a twist of a smile. “Surprised at my foresight? Don’t be. Trsiel told me the catch. And good thing he did, because…” My throat went tight. “Because I came very close to making a very big mistake. I’m not going to be an angel, Kris. The price is too high.”
“Savannah,” he murmured. “You couldn’t watch her anymore.”
“No, that’s not it. If anything, Savannah was the biggest plus to this whole offer.” I caught his gaze. “Becoming an angel would mean I could protect her, that I could have stopped Lily, just like Trsiel did. And, ever since Trsiel told me I might be a candidate, that’s all I’ve been able to think about, how it