for the Old Djinn. Now, if he wasn't careful, he'd lose everything. I felt that knowledge stab deep, and lodge like a dagger of ice somewhere near my heart. "I don't think I'm worth it," I said slowly.
He raised his head, and the look in his eyes broke me. "I think you are," he said. "I think you're worth far more. You've proven it to me so many times."
I had to take a deep breath, or I'd have burst into tears. As it was, my voice trembled. "David - Ashan told me the risks. If we exchange vows, it could bind the New Djinn the way that Jonathan's vow bound the Djinn in the first place. I could be responsible for enslaving you again. All of you." I swallowed hard. "I can't take that chance."
"No?" He smiled, but it was a bitter, dark thing, and it made me shiver. "I can."
"David - "
"I warned you. When Djinn fall in love, there's no middle ground. Our love is deep, and total, and merciless. " He regarded me for a long moment, and his hand closed around mine, far gentler than the look in his eyes. "You think I did this without considering the consequences? Without considering the cost to my own people, and my responsibilities?"
"I - " I finally shook my head. "I don't know. I don't know how it is for Djinn, but where love is involved, humans aren't usually that strong on logic."
That made his smile warmer, more genuine. "True enough for us as well. However, I believe that the New Djinn need to stay close to humanity, and I believe this is an important step to ensure that happens. You see? Logical. It also happens to be what I want to do. It's a risk, yes, but it's a risk I think is acceptable. In addition, it's a way to force the Sentinels out in the open, by forcing them to counter our move." He lifted my fingers to his mouth and kissed them, just a light brush of lips. "If you decide we can't go through with it, I'll abide by your decision."
"But . . . what about the others?"
"The other New Djinn? I won't say there aren't a few who are doubtful, but by and large, they're interested. Intrigued. It's possible that if we exchange vows, the Djinn could regain some measure of the additional power they had under the old agreement with the Wardens - but still retain their autonomy. As I said, we all consider it worth a try."
"Especially since it's temporary," I said. "Right? Till death do us part. Once I'm gone, the vow is broken."
Sadness softened the metallic glitter of his eyes. "Yes," he said. "Exactly. Unlike the agreement Jonathan made, which was to a group, this is to an individual. But the Old Djinn still don't want to take the risk. They're the more conservative force, and they worry about consequences. About precedence."
He was describing a lot more to me about Djinn politics than he ever had before, and I had to admit, I was intrigued. "The Mother said to let me fight my own battles, didn't she? That was why she summoned you both in, you and Ashan. To lay down the law."
"Yes."
"Which you promptly broke by racing to my side."
"Ashan broke it first," David pointed out. "He came to kill you, and I have no doubt he'd have done it. He didn't see you as worthy, not in any way, of what I'm offering."
"Flattering."
David shrugged. "Ashan's not known for being overly fond of mortals, but if he was going to be impressed by any human, it would probably be you."
"Why? Because I didn't whimper and die?" I shoved eggs around on my plate. I needed food, but everything seemed distant, lacking any kind of attraction or urgency.
"Because he saw what I saw. He saw your strength, your power, your beauty." David paused, studying me with an expression so tender that it melted my heart and gave me shivers. "He saw what I saw in your core, and it shook him. It shook all of them. You have a peculiar gift to make Djinn feel. In a way, that makes you more dangerous than anyone they've ever known."
"But less easy to kill, I hope."
He tilted his head. No answer. I chewed eggs. They were good, I supposed. More importantly, they were fuel for a body that had spent its reserves recklessly. My body fat was gone, and my blood sugar