A knot formed in Jake’s belly. It had been so long. What would it feel like with another man?
Shea licked his finger and ran it around the rim of his hole, and the knot became a flutter as his body turned electric. When Shea’s fingertip inched inside, Jake closed his eyes so he could concentrate. How he’d missed this intimacy. The touch of another human being. Shea’s breath against his hair, his damp skin…Jake’s broken insides softened, and with Shea filling him, those long-forgotten parts of him sprang to life.
“I didn’t bring anythin’ with me,” Shea whispered. “I didn’t plan…” Another finger joined the first, and Jake arched into the movement.
“I have. Nightstand drawer.”
From sheer loneliness, a year after Brian left, he’d thought to start dating again and joined a few apps. He’d even gotten up the courage to speak to several men and meet them for a drink or dinner. When one of the men had expressed a desire to take it to the next level, Jake had bought condoms and lube, but at the last moment he’d chickened out and canceled. Thinking back, he couldn’t even recall the man’s face or name.
“Found ’em.” Shea brought them over and set them on the comforter. A wicked grin curved his lips, teasing blue eyes brightened his face, and Jake knew without a doubt, there’d be no forgetting a man like Shea Montgomery.
Cool slickness rubbed around his hole, and Jake shifted, trying to push more of that finger into him. “Shea.” He grunted and grabbed hold of the man’s arm to hold him steady.
“Simmer down. Don’t you worry. I’m gonna give you everythin’ you need. ’Cause havin’ you is what I need too.”
Jake’s breathing accelerated until he was panting, and he dimly heard the sound of a condom wrapper being torn open. When the smooth, lubed head of Shea’s dick teased the rim of his hole, he choked back a cry.
“Oh, God. More. Come on.”
“I could keep you here all night like this,” Shea said with an edge to his voice. “So damn beautiful to watch you.”
Shea continued to flirt with his hole. Ripples ran under Jake’s skin, and his pulse pounded. His hands clawed at the mattress.
“I need…I want…” he stuttered, his head thrashing from side to side as his vision grew dim. He held himself and began to stroke. Every touch brought him closer, but it wasn’t enough. He needed more.
“Tell me.” Shea sank into him halfway, then stopped, and Jake promised himself if he didn’t die from this first, he was going to kill Shea. “I’m gonna give it to you, but tell me what you want.”
“You, goddammit. Fuck me.” Jake flailed, and his hand landed on Shea’s arm. He yanked him hard. “Now. I need it.”
Shea bent over and kissed him, their noses lightly touching, and his lips tasted sweet. “Animals fuck. Strangers fuck. Anyone can fuck. But I’m gonna make love to you.” He rolled his hips and pushed in farther. “Slowly, like this.” Once more they kissed, and Shea slid all the way inside Jake, who crumbled to pieces and clung to him. “Can you feel me?” He began a careful rocking motion, dragging his rigid cock almost to full withdrawal out of Jake’s passage, only to drive back in to the hilt. “Can you?”
But Jake was too far gone to answer, lost inside himself, his hand a blur on his cock, flying toward the sun until he burst into flames.
“Oh hell, you’re squeezin’ me so tight. Oh, Jesus.” Shea thrust deep again and again until he came, shocking Jake back to reality with the heavy weight of his sweat-soaked body collapsing on top of him.
Jake held Shea close, his sore, aching body wondrously alive, yet drenched in the uncertainty of what to say or do.
What would happen when Stacey woke up and found Shea in her house?
“I can feel you thinkin’.” Shea chuckled and rubbed his cheek to Jake’s before kissing him, a gesture so tender, Jake’s heart flipped. “Tell me what’s goin’ through your mind.” He slid out of Jake and disposed of the condom but sat on the edge of the bed. Jake rolled on his side, liking the smell of Shea in his sheets and on his skin.
He missed the closeness, feeling too open and empty. “I don’t know, and that’s the truth. I hadn’t thought about the future—what I’d do when I’d eventually meet someone and want to bring them not only into my bed,