Ford's Rise - L. Ann Marie Page 0,10
make my heart skip beats. My dick isn’t the only thing that reacts when you’re close, Alexia. My mind, heart and soul are all paying attention to every little movement you make, every word you say. I think it’s what they call all in. I’ve never felt it. Now I understand why the Brothers go crazy. With you, Alexia, I want more. I want to give more than I ever have. It’s new so I get if you need time. What do you want, feel, Alexia?”
“Goosebumps.”
He laughs squeezing me. That’s not a good answer so I keep going. “I feel all that without the detailed explanations. It’s scary. Télia said I have to love like there’s no such thing as a broken heart. I’m just trying to do that without knowing what it really means.”
He nods. “I’ve never felt like this either. I think we should listen to Télia. She would know. Ford is always happy when he tells me things about her.” He’s right so I nod.
“His face gets soft and eyes aren’t scary when Télia is around. I want all the things you said and want to give them to you, Web. I have to remember to use better words. You’re smart and have good ones. Descriptions and details aren’t easy when you don’t know them until someone else says it. Do we need a therapist for crazy?”
He laughs. “We have a bunch of them. Télia, Ford, the Brothers and ol’ ladies will be jumping in because that’s what they do when a Brother takes an ol’ lady. Ask the women. The Brothers are already on me. Justice gave me a list and Cort told me not to drag it out. Alder says you’re mine and I need to talk and show you.”
I nod and remind my brain to ask the women all the questions Web doesn’t answer. “Jeti and Stella are meeting me for lunch tomorrow at the Phoenix office. Stella said she’d make sure Hannah is there. She has information for me. Jeti isn’t sure Hannah is going to show. She said she’d get the information for me if she’s not there. They have classes for ol’ ladies. I haven’t taken them yet so I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I wish I took them in Providence. I didn’t know the women had classes. I bet they thought autism means not feeling. I feel everything. I just don’t have all the words and answers. New makes my brain crazy. I feel every bit of that then hurt because people talk to me like being scared is wrong or makes me look stupid. I always know what they’re saying to each other. Scared doesn’t make me deaf like Stella. She even hears reading her glasses. Autism is like that. She doesn’t hear words but sees them. I don’t see past scary but can hear everything.” I watch his eyes turn to soft like Ford when he talks to Télia.
“Stupid would never apply to you, Alexia. You’re so fucking smart. Today I was thinking of everything we’re going to learn from you. I even went to training so I didn’t miss anything. I’m glad that autism isn’t hidden. I’ve read a lot.” His shoulders go up and down fast. “I don’t have real-life experience. I need you to teach me, like how new is hard. Knowing that means I’m ready and aware of how you may feel. I’ll be right with you and get that you’re working through shit so I need to be close and show you you’re not alone.” Not alone.
“I like the not alone. I’ve always been alone.”
He nods. “Until the As, I was too. Now I have the Alpha-Bits, Brothers, the Fords and you. You should be first. I used the order they showed.”
I laugh. “I’m not offended. The best is always last.”
He kisses me, my brain races and heart beats wildly right against his bare chest. Holy moly!
Chapter Two
Two days
Web
Getting out of the shower I’m thinking of all the shit I don’t need in my head. Alexia is so fucking smart and possibly the best trainer I’ve ever seen and I see them all. She explains everything in list form, then shows it with the reason it’s done the way she maps it out. I’m in awe of her. The Alpha-Bits love her. Even the new kids from Finland and Sweden have been staying to ask her questions and for more class work. She’s doing two videotaped classes at night so