were. Still are. I’m sure there’re photos and videos from the prom to prove it.” He laughed as if hit by a sudden memory. “Damn girl, you were crazy in the gym, dancing on the tables and yelling at people. Chaperones tossed us out, babe. If I didn’t know better, I’d think you were a bad influence on me.” He cocked his head. “That’s what I’ll tell everyone at least.” He brushed at some lint on his trousers.
I shook my head. No. I was the good girl who’d scored the highest in her class on the SAT. I was the girl who volunteered at the local animal shelter—and not just for service hours. I didn’t get thrown out of parties. I barely got invited to them.
He pushed hair out of my face, his fingers trailing down my cheek.
I flinched and jerked away as far as I could. “Don’t touch me.”
“Ah, and here I was hoping you’d be ready for another round.” He chuckled, his hands fiddling with the ring I’d made for him a few weeks ago, a sterling silver band with our initials etched on the inside with a heart between them. I’d spent hours on it, engraving the letters and then fashioning the metal until it was perfect. I’d even used some of my college savings to buy the butane torch and tools necessary to make it good enough for him.
“You said you loved me.” I hated the weakness in my voice.
His lips quirked up. “I tell all the girls I love them, Elizabeth. You just took a little longer to give me what I wanted.”
A strangled noise came out of my mouth.
He sighed and zipped his pants. “Don’t be upset. We both wanted this.”
No, no, no.
He twisted his ring off and twirled it between his fingers. “I guess you’ll be wanting this back now.” He tossed it on the nightstand and it made a tinkling sound as it hit the wood, spun off, and fell onto the floor.
He checked his appearance in the mirror one last time to straighten his jacket. “Well, I have to go, but I’ll see you at graduation in a few days. Later, babe.”
And then he walked out the door, shutting it softly behind him.
Thank God.
I sucked in a shuddering breath, my lungs grasping for more air.
To make sense of what had happened.
An hour went by. Another one.
Memories flashed like a horror movie you didn’t want to watch but couldn’t stop. Colby carrying me in the hotel and placing me on the bed. Ripping my dress. Groping at my legs. Hitting. Shoving. Pain.
I’d tried to say no, but the words hadn’t come.
I’d tried to move, but I couldn’t.
My body had been a frozen statue, and he’d moved me where he wanted. Twisted me. Ruined me.
I held myself together and watched the minutes tick by on the digital clock as my alcohol-soaked brain struggled to make my body move again. In tiny increments, I slid my legs down until they touched the floor, my toes clenching into the cheap, fuzzy carpet. Groaning, I forced myself to sit up and then immediately fell. I crawled until I got to my purse in the corner of the room and found my phone.
Panic drove me.
Any minute he could come back in here and do it again.
My hand shook as I pushed 911 but froze when the nasally voice of the operator came on.
“You’ve reached 911. Do you have an emergency?”
Shame. Guilt. Remorse. Truth.
Had I asked for it?
Was this my fault?
I panted, the throbbing between my legs reminding me of my sin.
“Hello? Do you have an emergency? Do you need assistance?” The voice was more insistent.
“No,” I croaked and ended the call.
I gazed down at my ruined dress. Who’d believe a girl whose father was in prison—if he even was my father—versus the wealthy son of a senator? I was white trash, a small town girl lucky enough to get a scholarship at the prep school down the road.
Nausea rose again, more violently this time, until the contents of my stomach spewed out everywhere.
The smell of alcohol made me sicker.
Mocking me. Telling me the cold hard truth. I’d had a part to play in this scenario.
I clutched my chest, my heart hurting. Broken.
My muscles screamed.
My head banged.
I was done. Dead. Cold. Even my skin wanted to crawl away.
The sun crept up in the sky, the rays curling in through the dirty curtains. Dawn, a new day, but I’d never look at the sunrise the same.
Clarity happens to all