upward, as though trying to remember something, then said, “‘For the moon never beams without making me dream of the beautiful Annabel Lee.’”
Abigail laughed. “Oh, look at you, quoting poetry in the firelight.” She didn’t mention that he’d gotten the quote wrong.
“I got lucky. That’s one of the few poems I know.”
“Well, trust me. Any opportunity you get to quote a poem, you’ve got to take it these days. It’s a dying art.”
“Says the person who works at a poetry publisher.”
“I’m hanging on for dear life. It’s a good place to work, actually.”
The man smiled, more of a smirk. He really was handsome, despite the new agey bracelet and the whitened teeth. “When I asked you what you did for a living, I thought you were going to say you were a hedge fund manager or something, the way you talked about your parents.”
“What do you mean?”
“Oh, only that you seemed cynical about trying to make a living in the arts. I figured you’d have gone into something more stable.”
“No, that’s my fiancé. He’s not a hedge fund manager, but he invests in start-up companies. He can finance my career in the arts, for what it’s worth.”
“Is that why you’re marrying him?”
An ember had floated out from the firepit and landed on Abigail’s sweater. The man’s sweater, actually, Abigail thought. She swatted at it, hoping it wouldn’t leave a mark.
“What did you ask?”
“I asked if you’re marrying your fiancé because he’s wealthy, and now that I’m repeating that, I realize it’s none of my business.”
“No, that’s okay. And also no, that’s not why I’m marrying Bruce, but I do think I’m probably marrying him because of the personality traits that make him rich.”
“What do you mean by that?”
“Before I was with Bruce I was with this guy for a long time. He was a writer, a poet. We had a lot in common, I guess, but it was exhausting. He was constantly asking me to read things he’d written or sharing things he’d read. He had this notion of a creative life together, that we’d be broke, and happy, and constantly drunk, and misunderstood. And I got sick of it. Bruce is simple, but in a really good way. All his validation comes from his work, and his work is essentially bankrolling creative people. It’s just so nice to go see a movie with him, and not have him react with rage, or jealousy, or monologue at me about the hidden themes of what we’ve just seen.”
“So you’re saying he’s boring.”
“Who, Bruce? Yes, and it’s awesome.”
“So, the writer guy, what was his name?”
“His name was Ben.”
“So what number was Ben?”
“What do you mean?”
“Was he number two of the men you slept with?”
Ben Perez and Abigail were in the same incoming class at Wesleyan, both English majors, but they didn’t meet until they shared a class called Waugh, Greene, Spark during the second semester of sophomore year.
After that first class they walked to the dining hall as though they’d done it a hundred times, ate together, and that night went to see Black Narcissus at the Center for Film Studies on campus. They stayed up late in Ben’s single dormitory room, the window cracked, sharing a pack of Camel Blues and a bottle of cheap burgundy, listening to Nino Rota soundtracks. Abigail was instantly infatuated, and that whole first day and night with Ben was filled with the terrifying and thrilling feeling that she’d just met the person who might be the most important person in her life. Her freshman year she’d dated a senior named Mark Copley, who was both Wesleyan’s top tennis player and the editor of its lit magazine. Their relationship was a strictly weekend affair—Friday night parties after which Abigail would spend the night at Mark’s off-campus apartment. Sometimes she’d stay for the weekend, but not always. Abigail, who tended to relate all the occurrences in her life to books or movies, saw her relationship with Mark as two sophisticated partners living lives both separate and together. She thought of Tomas and Sabina in The Unbearable Lightness of Being, how the regulated infrequency of their time spent together was what kept it alive. Still, Abigail wound up being hurt when Mark never introduced her to his parents over graduation weekend, and she wasn’t surprised when he told her that now that he was no longer in college, he thought they should stop seeing each other.
“You don’t want to waste your next three years of college with a