“Apparently. Oh holy mother of god and French fries, yessss.”
Which is apparently what Judd says when you’re sticking your cock up his ass. Good to know.
Up until that exact moment, Colin had been more about the turn-on of what he could do, of how he could play on this man’s hot buttons, on the power of someone so strong at his mercy. But the act of thrusting into Judd changed everything.
Suddenly, this silken hot vise was all around his cock, squeezing impossibly tight.
He was breathless with it. “Oh, wow. And I thought blow jobs were nice.”
Judd’s rumble of amusement came at that. “You like it?”
“Could I just, you know, stay here forever?”
“Gingersnap, if you don’t move right-the-fuck-now, I will flip you over, and hold you down, and ride you so hard you’ll see stars.” Which didn’t seem like much of a threat and was such an erotic image it almost made Colin come on the spot.
He squeaked and reached down to grip the base of his own cock. “Don’t say stuff like that!”
“Oh, he likes that idea too, does he? Good to know. Now, remember my two rules?”
Colin groaned. Because as wonderful as it felt, he really needed to thrust. “Yeah, I remember. Slow. Lube.”
“Good. So ignore them both now.”
“Yeah?”
“I need you to move, baby. Hard and fast. Please.”
Judd begging. Colin couldn’t have that. He had to give him exactly what he wanted right now. Exactly what he needed. So he did it. Thrusting, hard and fast as he could.
Judd fell apart beneath him and around him, writhing and moaning, and crying out. The noises he made. God, those noises. The way he smelled, salt and eager, and all that beautiful smooth skin, the most amazing ass in the world. And Colin got to fuck it – fuck him. Hard and fast and free, just following where his hips and his heartbeat led. Racing towards something perfect.
Until Colin himself was nothing but pulses of need, joy, need, joy. Points of light and cum pushing out of him, transforming into love, mine, love, mate and that was a death knell. Terrifying. He was so glad Judd was a quivering mess beneath him, eyes closed, face mashed into a pillow, because he shouldn’t see Colin right now. He shouldn’t notice all the love just pulsing out of Colin. Because the risk in that was way too high. If Colin let himself give out love, when he returned to reality he’d be empty. When he was back to being unnoticed, to the place where Judd held him in easy distanced affection, Colin would truly, finally, be nothing. Void and lost. He couldn’t bear that idea. He’d always known he was strong enough to be ignored. But equally, now, he knew, that he wasn’t strong enough to love and be ignored.
Colin let himself fold over Judd, breathe him in. They were both sweaty and gross but that made for enough salt and wet to hide what tumbled down Colin’s face. He was a dork to cry over something so simple as sex. Something so easy for others. Something he was apparently good at. He was a dork to love on the basis of three encounters with a man who pitied him. Who was just teaching him to be whole. A dork to think there could be something more than that for someone like him.
Judd took his time recovering. Possibly because a goddamn novice had just given him the best dicking-out of his very long life. Possibly because he was weak and old and in love and couldn’t believe what had just happened. The smell of it. Of them, though. That made it all so very real.
Colin’s slim form, draped over him, was shaking. Either from cold or exertion. Judd wanted to move – to turn and cuddle. He was lying in a pool of his own cum. Colin’s cock, shrinking slowly, meant more was about to start leaking down his thighs. Not that he didn’t love that sensation, the remnants of being taken. But he should get up. He should do the waddle of shame down the hallway to the bathroom. Clean up. At the very least, find a t-shirt to wipe up the mess.
But he couldn’t bloody move. He could barely blink.
What the hell just happened?
Colin rolled off him, flopped onto his back. Twisted his neck to look at Judd.
Judd turned his head. They were nose to nose.
Colin’s eyes were fully green. He looked sad, scared,