and three to pull off. Plenty can go wrong yet.”
“I think it will go great,” I said, idly.
“That kind of assumption leads to complacency. We need to stay on the boil.”
“Yes, sir,” I smiled. “Lydia Marsh on the boil, sir.”
His look was stern, but there was amusement behind it, I could tell. His eyes glittered like black diamonds, and I fought the urge to poke my tongue out at him, revelling in a high I’d never felt before. Cara hadn’t been wrong. There’s this rush, when it hurts, and then a peace. It’s so beautiful. She’d missed out the euphoric afterglow, the excitement, as though your soul is bursting through your skin.
“Are you mocking me, Miss Marsh? I don’t take well to mockery.”
“I’m not mocking you,” I said. “I’m just happy.”
“And what can have possibly made you so happy between Monday evening and Tuesday morning?” he asked, leaning forwards with his elbows on the desk.
My eyes glanced to his metal ruler, just to the side of him. Images of Masque flashed into my mind all over again.
“I guess I’m finding a whole new me. A happier me.”
“Nothing like a break-up to aid a little self-reinvention.”
“Seems not,” I grinned. “I’m beginning to think maybe Carly Winters did me a favour after all.”
“That’s a bold statement for such early days.”
“Sure is.” I turned the pages of the itinerary, scouting the notes beyond. An email from Trevor White with some earlier amendments. A suggestion of a management round-up after lunch and a proposed evening meal. The evening meal had been crossed out in biro. “Was this you?” I asked, holding it out for him to view.
“Yes.”
“So, we aren’t doing the social with WHM?”
“No. Is that a problem?”
I shrugged. “No, not at all. Just curious.”
“Trevor White was keen to take us out, but I think we’ll have had enough of the corporate face by that point, don’t you?”
“I guess,” I said. “Whatever you think.”
“It’s been taken off the agenda anyway. I said we’d be busy catching up on other project updates.”
“Sure,” I smiled. “That’s fine. I’m sure we’ll catch them again.”
“We’ll have enough to discuss amongst ourselves, without Trevor White trailing you around all evening.”
“I’m sorry?”
“He likes you, Lydia. Professionally and personally.”
I flushed. “I don’t think you can say that based on a few calls to my direct line number, I’m his project manager.”
“I’m not basing it on a few calls to your direct line number, I’m basing it on a few emails he sent to my inbox yesterday afternoon.”
“What emails? What did he say?”
“Never mind what he said. I just don’t want him creeping around.”
“You don’t need to worry about me, I’d be very professional,” I said. “I’m not going to be flirting with clients. Work and play don’t mix.”
He leant forwards even closer, until musk and vanilla danced across the desk to me. “No. They don’t. Just so long as you remember that.”
“I think I’d find it hard not to remember that in light of recent circumstances, thanks very much.”
His eyes softened. “I’m just being cautious, Lydia.”
“It’s fine.” But it wasn’t. My hackles were up, my foot twitching under his desk.
“We’ll still get a social, a treat on me. You deserve it after everything you’ve put in. I really do appreciate it.”
Too little, too late. “Was there anything else?” I handed him back his itinerary, and got to my feet.
“Well, I was thinking we could go through the...” he paused, weighing me up. “No, there’s nothing else.”
“Then I’ll see you in Brighton,” I said. “I’ve got a lot to prepare over the next few days.”
“Of course.”
I didn’t linger.
The ping of my email sounded as soon as I was back in my seat.
From: James Clarke
Subject: Professionalism
Lydia, I’ve offended you. It was unintentional, and I assure you it’s much more about Trevor White than it is about you. I would never question your professional integrity. You conduct yourself faultlessly.
James Clarke
CTO, Trial Run Software Group.
Flawless instinct all over again.
To: James Clarke
Subject: Re: Professionalism.
Do you mean ‘sorry’?
Lydia
Lydia Marsh
Senior Project Co-ordinator, Trial Run Software Group.
I waited.
From: James Clarke
Subject: Re: re: Professionalism
Yes. I mean sorry.
Nothing like making someone work for it. I’ll remember this should the boot ever be on the other foot.
James Clarke
CTO, Trial Run Software Group.
His awkwardness made me smile. Maybe James Clarke was human after all.
To: James Clarke
Subject: Re: re: re: Professionalism.
Apology accepted.
Lydia
Lydia Marsh
Senior Project Co-ordinator, Trial Run Software Group.
I didn’t hear from him again, and the day was much worse for it.
I guess a girl can always make room for two crushes in her