been pulled. I was on my own.
I ran through my options. What could I do? Not much. I couldn’t leave. I had to be here if Katy came back. When Katy came back.
I looked at the clock—7:10 P.M. The files. Back to the files. What else could I do from inside these walls? My refuge had become my prison.
I changed clothes and went to the kitchen. Though my head was swimming, I took no medication. My mind was dull enough without sedation. I’d blast the germs with vitamin C. I got a can of frozen orange juice from the freezer and dug for the opener. Damn. Where is it? Too impatient to look for long, I grabbed a steak knife and sawed the top of the cardboard can to remove the metal lid. Pitcher. Water. Stir. You can do it. Clean up the mess later.
Moments later I was settled on the couch, tightly quilted, tissues and juice within arm’s reach. I played with my eyebrow to hold my nerves together.
Damas. I descended into the file, revisiting names, places, and dates I’d visited before. The Monastère St. Bernard. Nikos Damas. Father Poirier.
Bertrand had done a follow-up on Poirier. I reread it, my mind resisting concentration. The good father checked out. I reviewed the original interview, looking for other names to chase after, like clues in a road rally scavenger hunt. Next I’d rehash dates.
Who was the caretaker? Roy. Emile Roy. I dug for his statement.
It wasn’t there. I went through everything in the jacket. Nothing. Surely someone had talked to him. I couldn’t recall seeing the report. Why wasn’t it here?
I sat for a moment, the friction of my breath the only sound in my universe. The pre-idea sensation was back, like an aura presaging a migraine. The sense that I was missing something was stronger than ever, but the elusive fact would not come into focus.
I went back to Poirier’s statement. Roy tends the building and grounds. Fixes the furnace, shovels the snow.
Shovels snow? At age eighty? Why not? George Burns could do it. Past images drifted into my mind. I thought of the apparition I’d had, alone in the car, Grace Damas’s bones lying behind me in the rain-soaked woods.
I thought of my other dream that night. The rats. Pete. Isabelle Gagnon’s head. Her grave. The priest. What had he said? Only those who worked for the church could enter its gates.
Could that be it? Is that how he got onto the grounds of the monastery and Le Grand Séminaire? Is our killer someone who works for the church?
Roy!
Right, Brennan, an eighty-year-old serial killer.
Should I wait to hear from Ryan? Where the hell is he? I pulled out the phone book with trembling hands. If I can find the caretaker’s number, I’ll call.
There was one E. Roy listed in St. Lambert.
“Oui.” A gravelly voice.
Be careful. Take your time.
“Monsieur Emile Roy?”
“Oui.”
I explained who I was and why I was calling. Yes, I had the right Emile Roy. I asked about his duties at the monastery. For a long time he said nothing. I could hear him wheezing, the breath drawing in and out like air through a blowhole. Finally:
“I don’t want to lose my job. I take good care of the place.”
“Yes. Do you do it by yourself?”
I heard his breath catch, as though a pebble had clogged the blowhole.
“I just need a little help from time to time. It don’t cost them nothing more. I pay for it myself, out of my wages.” He was almost whining.
“Who helps you, Monsieur Roy?”
“My nephew. He’s a good boy. Mostly he does the snow. I was going to tell Father, but . . .”
“What’s your nephew’s name?
“Leo. He’s not going to get in no trouble, is he? He’s a good boy.”
The receiver felt slick in my palm.
“Leo what?”
“Fortier. Leo Fortier. He’s my sister’s grandson.”
His voice receded. I was pouring sweat. I said the necessary things and hung up, my mind flailing, my heart racing.
Calm down. It could be a coincidence. Being a caretaker and a part-time butcher’s helper doesn’t make one a killer. Think.
I looked at the clock and reached for the phone. Come on. Be there.
She picked up on the fourth ring.
“Lucie Dumont.”
Yes!
“Lucie, I can’t believe you’re still there.”
“I had some trouble with a program file. I was just leaving.”
“There’s something I need, Lucie. It’s extremely important. You may be the only one who can get it for me.”
“Yes?”
“I want you to run a check on someone. Do whatever it is