It seemed like such a waste of time.
“Dash?” Garnet touched my hand.
“Huh?”
“Dash, I asked if you wanted to go lift weights?” Dart chimed in.
“No, I’ve got stuff to do.” I answered, drying my hands on the towel, and headed to my room.
I grabbed my phone, double-checking the text. Tracy was a go-to girl for me, but when she came over last time, nothing had really happened. This time, I needed to keep my mind focused on her and not think about Garnet. Tracy’s text said that she would be over shortly, and I quickly got ready.
When the doorbell rang, I jogged down the stairs. When I opened the door, Tracy’s tall, lean body was waiting for me on the other side. Her long black hair wasn’t as shiny as Garnet’s, and her black eyes aren’t as welcoming as Garnet’s either.
“Dash, are you going to invite me in?”
“Right, yeah.” I shook my thoughts of Garnet away. I stepped back, out of the way.
Tracy had been to my house several times, and she went straight to the couch, making herself comfortable.
“So, I guess we’re going to pick up where we left off last time?”
I gave her a small smile, sitting down next to her. “I think so.”
“Good, because I left here unsatisfied,” she pouted.
I glanced at her lips, noticing that they weren’t as pretty as Garnet’s. I leaned in, capturing them with mine. Her strong perfume overpowered my senses and almost choked me. I pushed through the smell and continued kissing her.
“Dash,” I broke the kiss off, hearing my name yelled from the front door. “I’m out of orange juice.” It was Garnet strolling through the house.
“Garnet,” I said firmly. “Why the hell are you shouting?”
“Oh,” she walked into the living room with the carton. “I’m so sorry, I figured you were upstairs. I’m so sorry, I really didn’t mean to interrupt.” She quickly ran out the door.
“Who was that?” Tracy asked.
“A thorn in my side,” I mumbled.
“What?”
“Nothing.” I waved my hand, laying my head on the back of the couch.
“I’m having a déjà vu moment here, Dash.” Tracy huffed. “We’ve never had this problem before.”
I sighed deeply. “I think I have a headache.”
She gave me a small kiss. “That’s the girl’s line. Call me when it goes away.” Tracy got up and left the house.
Dammit.
Chapter 15 – Garnet
I called all around the Huntington area to find a dance studio, and I found one that would allow me some private time. I’d almost passed out when I got off the phone.
Now, here I was.
I cracked my knuckles as I walked to the middle of the dance floor. I slipped on my iPod, and put the buds in my ears. I rolled my neck as the bass began to thump in my head.
After almost an hour, my thighs were killing me. My eyes were puffy from crying, and I had a headache because I kept the music loud to drown out my thoughts.
When I got home, all I could think about was a cold shower and alcohol. I knew Daisy was gone with Dart, and I had the house to myself.
After I got out of the shower, I saw several posts on Facebook about a huge party down the block from the house.
I was going to be there, for sure.
I lay on my bed and tried to comprehend my dancing today. It had been almost a full year since I stepped into a studio. Even though Mom had cancer for almost 2 years, I had kept up my dancing for a little while, before she became sicker.
What would she think about me now?
Would she be proud?
Doubt it, because she would never have approved of the drinking and sleeping around. She was always saying that Daisy and I should conduct ourselves with respect for our bodies. I knew I wasn’t doing that now. Then again, I hadn’t had sex in a month, so I don’t think I can classify myself as someone who slept around.
The sound of a loud motorcycle brought me out of my sexless thoughts. I was accustomed to Dash’s bike sounds. I was still embarrassed at barging into his house when he had company over. I was even a little hurt. I knew I didn’t have any claims to him. I mean, we weren’t in any type of relationship. I had no reason to feel that way, but I did. Maybe it was because I liked our friendship, and I didn’t want to lose that. Dash’s advice was the main reason