bowed his head, tightened his grip on her. “Do you trust me?” he asked finally.
She looked into his face—the kaleidoscope of his eyes, the set line of his mouth.
“Yes,” she said. It was true and it wasn’t. You couldn’t really trust anyone, could you? Not even yourself.
“Then don’t worry about the article, or the detective, or the FBI. They’re looking for people who don’t exist anymore. Pearl and Charlie—they’re long gone.”
“I don’t want to go back.”
He put a warm palm to her cheek.
“As long as I’m alive, you’re safe. I promise you that.”
She couldn’t find her voice, but let him pull her close. She usually shrank from physical affection, didn’t like people near, or touching her. But she could tolerate his closeness, even craved it sometimes.
“Now, go put on something nice—you know, like, sweet. And come help me with dinner. We’re having company.”
“What do you mean?”
“I found a job.”
A job. The word had a very different meaning to Pop than it did to most people. He had his own language. “New friend” was someone he met who might or might not be a mark. “Girlfriend” meant he had one on the hook. “Venture” meant that it was bigger than a personal con, something that might take longer, be more complicated. “Breakup” meant that it was time to get out of town. A “job” meant that it was showtime.
* * *
Now, Anne looked for him in the shadows of the firelit room. But he was gone.
“Good night, Pop,” she said. A log tumbled in the fire, sending sparks up the chimney.
She was about to turn in for the night when her phone pinged. She expected something from Hugh, something desperate or ragey, accusations, or begging to meet—depending on whether Kate had kicked him out or not. But no.
Well, well. How about that?
I had a late meeting. Free for a drink?
This is Selena, by the way.
From the train.
TWENTY
Selena
The sound of her footfalls on the pavement echoed in the rainy hush, nerve endings pulsing. What was she doing? Acting against all logic and good sense, clearly.
After Will left her house, and she’d returned inside, she found Graham passed out on the couch, snoring. That was Graham’s escape hatch, sleep. Stressed or depressed, the guy just passed out cold. She stood over him, thought about waking him up, grilling him about his time with the police. Questioning him about Geneva, if there was more she needed to know.
But the truth was, she couldn’t even stand the sound of his voice, didn’t want to hear all his excuses, heartfelt pleas, apologies. She didn’t believe he would ever hurt anyone, didn’t think he had anything to do with whatever had happened to Geneva. If anything had happened at all.
But looking down at his prone form, something had switched off inside her. They’d had everything. Whatever doubts she’d had before the wedding, she’d loved her husband. They’d created a family; she’d been a faithful and loving wife. He’d set fire to everything they’d built. Not once, but three times—that she knew of. She couldn’t forgive him, not now. She wasn’t sure she even loved him anymore.
Alone in the kitchen, she’d tried Geneva another time. No answer. “It’s Selena. Please call us,” she pleaded with the voice mail. “Let someone know that everything is okay so that we can all go on with our lives.”
Then, she’d scrolled through the texts from Martha. The only person other than Graham and Will who knew that her husband had been sleeping with the nanny.
One thing she knew from her work in PR was that a little preemptive damage control could go a long way. Sometimes, if you could get out in front of something, you could divert disaster altogether.
So she sent a text.
I had a late meeting. Free for a drink?
Now, as she made her way up West Broadway, beneath the thrum of anxiety, wasn’t there something else? Something dark and glittering. Why did doing the wrong thing sometimes feel right? There was a tingle to breaking the rules, to doing the thing you shouldn’t do—like driving too fast, going home with a stranger, fighting when you should back down. There was an energy in that space, an electricity, an aliveness she didn’t feel when she was doing all the things she did as a good mom, a good wife, a good daughter.
She passed a couple that leaned into each other, the woman laughing. A man sped by on his bicycle, jacket glistening with rainwater, moving too fast for the wet