how she tries to portray you, I know you. Don’t forget that.”
She was wearing a black dress with a silvery-white pattern that Bosch liked. She looked very beautiful.
“I, uh, I-how long were you here?”
“For most of it. I’m glad I came. I know it was rough, but I saw the goodness of what you are come through all the harshness of what you sometimes have to do.”
He just looked at her a moment.
“Be optimistic, Harry.”
“The stuff about my mother...”
“Yes, I heard it. It hurt me that this is where I learned about it. Harry, where are we if there are those kinds of secrets between us? How many times do I have to tell you that it is endangering what we have?”
“Look,” he said, “I can’t do this right now. Deal with this and you, us-it’s too much for right now. It’s not the right place. Let’s talk about it later. You’re right, Sylvia, but I, uh, I just can’t... talk. I-”
She reached up and straightened his tie and then smoothed it on his chest.
“It’s okay,” she said. “What will you do now?”
“Follow the case. Whether officially or not, I have to follow this. I have to find the second man, the second killer.”
She just looked at him for a few moments and he knew she had probably hoped for a different answer.
“I’m sorry. It’s not something I can put off. Things are happening.”
“I’m going to go in to school then. So I don’t lose the whole day. Will you be up to the house tonight?”
“I’ll try.”
“Okay, see you, Harry. Be optimistic.”
He smiled and she leaned into him and kissed him on the cheek. Then she walked off toward the escalator.
Bosch was watching her go when Bremmer came up.
“You want to talk about this? That was some interesting testimony in there.”
“I said all I’m saying on the stand.”
“Nothing else?”
“Nope.”
“What about what she says? That the second killer is really the first and that Church didn’t kill anybody.”
“What do you expect her to say? It’s bullshit. Just remember, what I said in the courtroom was under oath. What she says out here isn’t. It’s bullshit, Bremmer. Don’t fall for it.”
“Look, Harry, I have to write this. You know? It’s my job. You going to understand that? No hard feelings?”
“No hard feelings, Bremmer. Everybody has got their job to do. Now I’m going to go do mine, okay?”
He walked off toward the escalator. Outside at the statue, he lit a cigarette and gave one to Tommy Faraway, who had been sifting through the ash can.
“What’s happening, Lieutenant?” the homeless man asked.
“Justice is happening.”
Chapter 18
Bosch drove over to Central Division and found an open parking space at the front curb. For a while, he sat in his car looking at two trustees from the lockup washing the painted enamel mural that stretched along the front wall of the bunkerlike station. It was a depiction of a nirvana where black and white and brown children played together and smiled at friendly police officers. It was a depiction of a place where the children still had hope. In angry black spray paint along the bottom of the mural someone had written, “This is a damnable lie!”
Bosch wondered whether someone from the neighborhood or a cop had done it. He smoked two cigarettes and tried to clear his mind of what had happened in the courtroom. He felt strangely at peace with the idea that some of his secrets had been revealed. But he held little hope for the outcome of the trial. He had moved into a feeling of resignation, an acceptance that the jury would find against him, that the twisted delivery of evidence in the case would convince them that he had acted, if not like the monster Chandler had described, then at least in an undesirable and reckless manner. They would never know what it was like to have to make such decisions as he had made in so fleeting a moment.
It was the same old story that every cop knew. The citizens want their police to protect them, to keep the plague from their eyes, from their doors. But those same John Q.’s are the first to stare wide-eyed and point the finger of outrage when they see close up exactly what the job they’ve given the cops entails. Bosch wasn’t a hardliner. He didn’t condone the actions taken by police in the Andre Galton cases and the Rodney King cases. But he understood those actions and knew that his own