fine rage ebbed away, leaving me cold and empty. I was straddling Bill, and he was prone on the floor, lying passively with his hands at his sides. My hands eased off of his neck and I used them to cover my face.
“I hope that hurt like hell,” I said, my voice choking but clear enough.
“Yes,” he said. “It hurt like hell.”
Bill pulled me down to the floor by him, covered us both with the blanket. He gently pushed my head into the notch of his neck and shoulder.
We lay there in silence for what seemed like a long time, though maybe it was only minutes. My body nestled into his out of habit and out of a deep need; though I didn’t know if the need was for Bill specifically, or the intimacy I’d only shared with him. I hated him. I loved him.
“Sookie,” he said, against my hair, “I’m—”
“Hush,” I said. “Hush.” I huddled closer against him. I relaxed. It was like taking off an Ace bandage, one that had been wrapped too tight.
“You’re wearing someone else’s clothes,” he whispered, after a minute or two.
“Yes, a vampire named Bernard. He gave me clothes to wear after my dress got ruined at the bar.”
“At Josephine’s?”
“Yes.”
“How did your dress get ruined?”
“I got staked.”
Everything about him went still. “Where? Did it hurt?” He folded down the blanket. “Show me.”
“Of course it hurt,” I said deliberately. “It hurt like hell.” I lifted the hem of the sweatshirt carefully.
His fingers stroked the shiny skin. I would not heal like Bill. It might take a night or two more for him to become as smooth and perfect as he had been, but he would look just as before, despite a week of torture. I would have a scar the rest of my life, vampire blood or no vampire blood. The scar might not be as severe, and it was certainly forming at a phenomenal rate, but it was undeniably red and ugly, the flesh underneath it still tender, the whole area sore.
“Who did this to you?”
“A man. A fanatic. It’s a long story.”
“Is he dead?”
“Yeah. Betty Joe Pickard killed him with two big blows of her fist. It kind of reminded me of a story I read in elementary school, about Paul Bunyan.”
“I don’t know that story.” His dark eyes caught mine.
I shrugged.
“As long as he’s dead now.” Bill had a good grip on that idea.
“Lots of people are dead now. All because of your program.”
There was a long moment of silence.
Bill cast a glance at the door Eric had tactfully closed behind him. Of course, he was probably listening right outside, and like all vampires, Eric had excellent hearing. “It’s safe?”
“Yes.”
Bill’s mouth was right by my ear. It tickled when he whispered, “Did they search my house?”
“I don’t know. Maybe the vamps from Mississippi went in. I never had a chance to get over there after Eric and Pam and Chow came to tell me you’d been snatched.”
“And they told you . . . ?”
“That you were planning on leaving me. Yes. They told me.”
“I already got paid back for that piece of madness,” Bill said.
“You might have been paid back enough to suityou ,” I said, “but I don’t know if you’ve been paid back enough to suitme .”
There was a long silence in the cold, empty room. It was quiet out in the living room, too. I hoped Eric had worked out what we were going to do next, and I hoped it involved going home. No matter what happened between Bill and me, I needed to be home in Bon Temps. I needed to go back to my job and my friends and I needed to see my brother. He might not be much, but he was what I had.
I wondered what was happening in the next apartment.
“When the queen came to me and said she’d heard I was working on a program that had never been attempted before, I was flattered,” Bill told me. “The money she offered was very good, and she would have been within her rights not to offer any, since I am her subject.”
I could feel my mouth twisting at hearing yet another reminder of how different Bill’s world was from mine. “Who do you think told her?” I asked.
“I don’t know. I don’t really want to,” Bill said. His voice sounded offhand, even gentle, but I knew better.
“You know I had been working on it for some time,” Bill said, when he figured I