had beeped, and he had glanced down at a text from Andrew. He read it and experienced an air punch to the midriff: Arf leaving for good.
‘I’m talking to you, Stuart—’
‘I know — what?’
‘All these posts — Simon Price, Parminder, Dad — these are all people you know. If you’re behind all this—’
‘I’ve told you, I’m not.’
‘—you’re causing untold damage. Serious, awful damage, Stuart, to people’s lives.’
Fats was trying to imagine life without Andrew. They had known each other since they were four.
‘It’s not me,’ he had said.)
Serious, awful damage to people’s lives.
They had made their lives, Fats thought scornfully as he turned into Foley Road. The victims of the Ghost of Barry Fairbrother were mired in hypocrisy and lies, and they didn’t like the exposure. They were stupid bugs running from bright light. They knew nothing about real life.
He could see a house ahead that had a bald tyre lying on the grass in front of it. He had a strong suspicion that that was Krystal’s, and when he saw the number, he knew he was right. He had never been here before. He would never have agreed to meet her at her home during the lunch hour a couple of weeks ago, but things changed. He had changed.
They said that her mother was a prostitute. She was certainly a junkie. Krystal had told him that the house would be empty because her mother would be at Bellchapel Addiction Clinic, receiving her allotted amount of methadone. Fats walked up the garden path without slowing, but with unexpected trepidation.
Krystal had been on the watch for him, from her bedroom window. She had closed the doors of every room downstairs, so that all he would see was the hall; she had thrown everything that had spilt into it back into the sitting room and kitchen. The carpet was gritty and burnt in places, and the wallpaper stained, but she could do nothing about that. There had been none of the pine-scented disinfectant left, but she had found some bleach and sloshed that around the kitchen and bathroom, both of them sources of the worst smells in the house.
When he knocked, she ran downstairs. They did not have long; Terri would probably be back with Robbie at one. Not long to make a baby.
‘Hiya,’ she said, when she opened the door.
‘All right?’ said Fats, blowing out smoke through his nostrils.
He did not know what he had expected. His first glimpse of the interior of the house was of a grimy bare box. There was no furniture. The closed doors to his left and ahead were strangely ominous.
‘Are we the only ones here?’ he asked as he crossed the threshold.
‘Yeah,’ said Krystal. ‘We c’n go upstairs. My room.’
She led the way. The deeper inside they went, the worse the smell became: mingled bleach and filth. Fats tried not to care. All doors were closed on the landing, except one. Krystal went inside.
Fats did not want to be shocked, but there was nothing in the room except a mattress, which was covered with a sheet and a bare duvet, and a small pile of clothes heaped up in a corner. A few pictures ripped from tabloid newspapers were sellotaped to the wall; a mixture of pop stars and celebrities.
Krystal had made her collage the previous day, in imitation of the one on Nikki’s bedroom wall. Knowing that Fats was coming over, she had wanted to make the room more hospitable. She had drawn the thin curtains. They gave a blueish tinge to daylight.
‘Gimme a fag,’ she said. ‘I’m gasping.’
He lit it for her. She was more nervous than he had ever seen her; he preferred her cocky and worldly.
‘We ain’ got long,’ she told him, and with the cigarette in her mouth, she began to strip. ‘Me mum’ll be back.’
‘Yeah, at Bellchapel, isn’t she?’ said Fats, somehow trying to harden Krystal up again in his mind.
‘Yeah,’ said Krystal, sitting on the mattress and pulling off her tracksuit bottoms.
‘What if they close it?’ asked Fats, taking off his blazer. ‘I heard they’re thinking about it.’
‘I dunno,’ said Krystal, but she was frightened. Her mother’s willpower, fragile and vulnerable as a fledgling chick, could fail at the slightest provocation.
She had already stripped to her underwear. Fats was taking off his shoes when he noticed something nestled beside her heaped clothes: a small plastic jewellery box lying open, and curled inside, a familiar watch.
‘Is that my mum’s?’ he said, in surprise.
‘What?’ Krystal panicked. ‘No,’ she lied. ‘It