them in place with one hand and then guided his cock into me with the other.
Oh. My. God.
While his lips found mine, his mouth devoured me and his cock began to fill me.
A peaceful blissfulness washed over me. I was thirty years old and I had never felt this kind of passion. I honestly didn’t think it existed.
He pushed inside me slowly. A little at a time.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.
Heaven.
“Oh, fuck, you’re so tight,” he moaned.
At first, alarm rose in my belly, but somehow I managed to push it away. My gaze flickered over his jaw, his hair, and landed on his smoldering eyes. Needy, I jerked my hips forward, urging for more, and suppressed the fact that he was talking.
He laughed and groaned at the same time. The one sound I knew I’d never forget. He pushed deeper and then again slowly withdrew.
My hands were bound and I wanted them free so I could reach behind him and push him all the way into me.
He was breathing hard and so was I, but we still kissed, opened mouthed, tongues touching, teeth clashing.
Logan dropped his hold.
Curious as to why, I peeked up at him.
He blinked the water from his eyes. “Wrap your arms around my neck.”
The deep sound of his voice.
The way he spoke.
It didn’t bother me . . . and I didn’t hesitate.
As soon as my body surrounded his, he lifted me again and . . . oh God . . . he sank deep inside me. I snaked my legs around his back and this way, in this position, his cock fit in my cunt in the most perfect way.
His thrusts were quick.
They felt so good.
His kisses rough.
They felt so good.
His grip tight.
It felt so good.
Moving together, we fucked hard and fast. And all the while, incredible bursts of pleasure crested through me, making my entire body shake.
My orgasm struck fast and shut my mind down. Tiny explosions behind my eyelids took over, and in that moment there was nothing else that mattered but him and me and the way our bodies responded to each other.
Logan started to come in the midst of my orgasm. I could feel his body still and felt that one, last deep penetration before he called out my name.
My name.
I loved how it sounded groaned in ecstasy.
It was the perfect ending to an incredible union.
With my clit pulsing around his cock and my body wrapped around his, I wanted to stay like that forever.
It was strange, but in the moment, I didn’t care about what could never be, or what might be.
This feeling was what I had been searching for.
My experience with Charlie had taught me many things, but most of all it taught me love would never be a part of my life. I was fine with that. It’s not like I ever thought it would. He was unexpected. At the risk of sounding cold, he was a nice distraction from my struggle to figure the whole sex thing out. Sex with him hadn’t been the focus of our relationship, which was what had been most appealing about him.
After him, though, I felt compelled to continue with my quest. Although a self-repressed sexual being by nature, I spent years chasing after what my father needed so desperately from sex that he bled the life out of my mother to get it. I tried everything I could but never found it. I slept with men for the sole purpose of finding it. Once, I even slept with two at the same time. I had a cock in my mouth and one in my cunt. And still nothing. I used vibrators, cock rings, and a drawer full of toys chasing that high that was supposed to come with sex. I had begun to think that it wasn’t for me to experience. And then, with a man I’d just met, a man who by circumstance should have been my enemy, I found it.
And the worst part was that it took me experiencing it to know for certain that my years of searching were futile—that in no way was that feeling the reason my father fucked my mother to death. Because what I just experienced was entirely mutual. It was as much about what I gave as what I took. And that is what made it so incredible. In my parents’ case, that was in no way what was going on between them.
Some things in life will just never make sense.
LOGAN
I hadn’t smoked in years, but I needed a