And then, once all that was over, she would fulfill her end of the bargain.
She hadn’t expected good-bye this fast.
Her carefully constructed world of possibilities and future scenarios dissolved into haze. “But—our Trade,” she found herself saying, against all odds. “You haven’t asked me for my end of it.”
He huffed, his breath forming a whorl of mist in the air. “I don’t need anything from you anymore. It all ends tonight.”
Something about that phrase didn’t sit right, and she struggled for a moment, trying to figure out what to say. But he was already turning, reaching to put his mask back on.
Her hands shot out. Clasped his wrists.
Ramson’s gaze snapped to her; his lips parted. “What—”
“Come with me,” Ana said before he could speak. “You could be good.” The words tumbled from her mouth, jumbled and rushed, and she could think of nothing else to say after.
Something shifted in Ramson’s expression, and it was like the fog had cleared and she was looking straight at him for the first time. There was an earnestness to his bright hazel eyes that she had never seen before when he spoke again. “When I was small, my father told me that there was no pure good or pure evil in the world. He said that humans only exist in different shades of gray.” He shifted, and his fingers slid around her wrists, his touch raising gooseflesh on her arms even through her gloves. “I believed that, until I met you, Ana. So…thank you.”
Shades of gray. Why did that ring another bell within her? Humans only existed in different shades of gray—
What defines you is how you choose to wield it. A gentle wind kissed her cheeks and brought her brother’s voice back to her.
“You’re right,” she said quietly, holding Ramson’s gaze. “The world doesn’t exist in black and white. But I would like to believe that it is our choices that define us.” His hands were warm and steady on hers. “Make the right choice, Ramson.”
Something wet fell on her cheek, and Ramson’s expression shifted to wonder. Ana felt another touch of coldness and wetness, and another, and another. And as the first snowflakes gently landed on Ramson’s hair, she realized that it was snowing.
They angled their faces to the sky, at the silver flecks that twirled silently in the air and came to rest on their shoulders, on their clothes, on their faces and lips and necks. If there was a single moment she wanted to imprint in a sketch, this was it; this was a scene she wanted to remember.
Ramson let go of her hands. Through the softly falling flakes that caught in his hair and on his lashes and cheeks, he looked younger and more vulnerable than she had ever seen, hunching into his suit to ward out the cold. Something flickered in his expression, and then his eyes shuttered. “Good-bye, Ana.”
Wait, she wanted to say. Tell me your real name. Tell me who you are. Something, anything, to get him to stay.
But she could only breathe, “Good-bye, Ramson,” as she watched his retreating back disappear into a night of silently falling snow.
She turned to the balustrade, composing herself for a moment, trying to tease out the tangled, gnarled strands of her emotions. The snow was coming thickly now, whirling in a blur.
Below, on the veranda leading out to the gardens, a figure stepped into the dark, clad in robes of white. And as Ana’s gaze fell to him, her heart pounded and her blood roared in her ears.
The man tilted his face to the sky, and it was like looking at a ghost.
Tetsyev was here.
Ramson had worn many masks in his life, donning them and shedding them like second skins. He’d always played whatever role he needed to get the job done. Tonight, as he looked at his reflection in the mirror—clean-shaven in his black tuxedo and slicked hair—he felt as though he were simply wearing another mask and preparing for another show.
Except…
Standing there under the softly falling snow with Ana, he’d felt unmasked and raw. Something about this girl lured out the whisper of the boy he’d once been. Something about this girl made him want to be that boy. And his chest was heavy with the possibility of what that might have been were he a better man who made better choices.
Come with me. You could be good.
Ana had been that choice. And in some ways, Ramson had seen it through. He’d made a detour