doesn’t know.
“Our housemates, I don’t see—”
“But Tom’s never done it before!”
“No. But he was a father.”
Olympia stares at her hands, submerged in the bucket.
“I’ll tell you what,” Malorie says facetiously, “we’ll deliver each other’s.”
“Deliver each other’s!” Olympia says, smiling at last. “Malorie, you’re too much!”
Gary enters the kitchen. He scoops a glass of water from a bucket on the counter. Then he scoops a second glass. Malorie knows it’s for Don. As he exits, music suddenly comes from the living room. Malorie leans back so she can see in there. Tom holds the small battery-operated radio. It’s one of George’s cassette tapes. Felix, on his hands and knees, measures Tom’s steps as he walks in rhythm to the song.
“What are they doing?” Olympia asks.
“I think they have somewhere specific in mind to go,” Malorie says. “They’re trying to come up with a better way of traveling outside.”
Malorie quietly steps to the dining room’s entrance. Peering in, she sees Don and Gary, their backs to her, sitting in dining room chairs. They are speaking quietly.
Again she crosses the kitchen. As she enters the living room, Tom is smiling. He has a leash in each hand. The huskies are playing with them, wagging their tails.
The discrepancy between the bright, progressive actions of those in the living room and the hushed conspiratorial tones of those in the dining room is all Malorie can think about.
She steps to the sink again and begins washing. Olympia is talking but Malorie is thinking of something else. She leans forward and is able to see Gary’s shoulder. Beyond him, propped against the wall, is the only item he brought in with him from the outside world.
His briefcase.
He showed them the contents when he entered the house. Don asked him to. But did she get a good look at them? Did any of the housemates?
“And stop!” Tom says. Malorie turns to see the dogs and he are in the entranceway to the kitchen. The huskies both sit. Tom rewards them with raw meat.
Malorie keeps washing. She is thinking of the briefcase.
thirty-two
She has known this was coming. How could she not? All the signs have been there since they returned with the dogs. Tom and Jules have been training them ten, twelve hours a day. Using the house, then the yard. Seeing Eye dogs. The box of birds hanging outside works like an alarm. Just like Tom said it would. The birds cooed when Gary arrived. They sing when Cheryl feeds them. So, it was only a matter of time before Tom declared he was going to use the Seeing Eye dogs to enter the new world once again.
But this time it’s worse. Because this time he’s going farther.
They were gone two days for one block. When will we see them again if they go three miles?
Three miles. That’s how far it is to Tom’s house. That’s where he wants to go.
“It’s the only place I can be a hundred percent sure of,” he said. “I’ve got supplies there. We need them. Band-Aids. Neosporin. Aspirin. Bandages.”
Malorie’s spirit rose with the mention of medicine. But Tom outside, and for that long, is too much for her to support.
“Don’t worry,” Felix said that same night. “We’ve mapped it out to a T. Tom and Jules are going to walk to the rhythm of a song. A single song. It’s called ‘Halfway to Paradise’ by a guy named Tony Light. They’ll bring the radio and play it over and over as they follow the directions we’ve figured out. We know how many steps it will take for each direction, for every portion of the trip.”
“So you’re planning on dancing there?” Gary said. “How nice.”
“Not dancing,” Tom said aggressively. “Walking to get help.”
“Tom,” Cheryl said, “you can practice this all you want, but if your steps are a half an inch longer out there, you’re going to be off. You’ll get lost. And how the fuck are you going to get back then? You won’t.”
“We will,” Tom said.
“And it’s not like we’re helpless if we get lost,” Jules added. “We need the supplies. You know this better than most, Cheryl. You took stock last.”
Yes, this day has been coming. But Malorie doesn’t like it at all.
“Tom,” she said, pulling him aside, just before he and Jules left this morning. “I don’t think the house could stand it if you didn’t come back.”
“We’re going to come back.”
“I understand that you think you will,” Malorie said, “but I don’t think you realize how much the