that love, we see the best and worst in each other. I need you to know that.”
“Knowing and understanding are two different things,” he mumbled, shoving his hands in his pockets.
“What do you want out of this?” I asked, forcing myself to look into his eyes.
“I want the love that knows no bounds. That consumes you until it’s all you breathe.” He paused. “It scares me.”
“My emotions are all over the place. I know what I feel for you. But there’s a wall.” And I didn’t know what we could do to break it down.
“There’s always been a wall.” He reached a hand out to me. “Please.” His eyes pleaded with me to go to him.
“Do you think we can break down this wall?”
“Together, yes,” he said, still holding out his hand for me.
I accepted it, embracing in the warmth of his touch.
Once we reached his apartment, we entered in silence. He took off his jacket, loosening his tie and unbuttoned the top three buttons of his dress shirt. The muscles moved beneath the fabric, stretching over his bones.
I moved past him, taking off my dress and headed towards his bedroom.
He didn’t follow.
My chest ached, my throat burning. Sliding onto the bed, I pulled the covers up and around me. I didn’t know what had happened between us during the ride home. He always told me to talk to him and when I did, he became disengaged. I loved him. More than anything. He made me feel normal, almost human again.
But it wouldn’t be enough. I knew it. I just didn’t want to admit it.
Mae
Waking up alone during the night, I found Matteo sitting in the leather chair in the dark corner of his room. This time was different than before. No tumbler graced his hand. No casual stance. No. Right now, his fingers dug into the arms of the chair. His back stiff. His eyes smoldering. Something was off. Something was shifting in the air. I could taste it.
Shadows crossed over him, the moonlight giving him an eerily glow.
“M-M-…” I stuttered. “Sir?”
He scratched his jaw, watching me.
Rising from the bed, I made my way towards him and knelt at his feet. Presenting myself, I placed my hands palms up on my spread thighs. And waited. Physically, I was calm, collected. Mentally, I was all over the place. I was begging, pleading, needing him in every way I could have him. I wanted more but I would have to wait. I knew that. Even though patience was not my strongest forte, I had to try. For him. For us.
Hands cupped my face, thumbs brushed under my eyes. “Don’t cry over me.”
I inhaled a shaky breath, now noticing the wetness coating my cheeks. I didn’t want to cry anymore. I didn’t want to feel anything except for Matteo. I craved his touch in the worst way possible.
“Please,” I whispered, looking up at him through tear soaked lashes.
Matteo tilted my head back, licking along the crease of my mouth. “The only tears I want from you are tears of pleasure and pain.” His fingers ran through my hair, holding my head in place.
Opening my mouth, I hinted.
He sucked on my tongue, tugging and pulling. He swallowed my moans and with a gentle hand, he pushed me onto my back. Trailing light kisses down the length of my torso, he licked and sucked at my skin.
I arched under his touch, silently begging him to go faster but wanting to savor it all just the same.
Rough hands spread me open, revealing me to him. His mouth moved over my body, biting along the way.
“Matteo,” I groaned, my skin on fire for him.
“You want the darkness inside of me,” he said, his voice rough. “You want to know what happens when I see her. I lose my fucking mind,” he growled, sinking his teeth into my hip.
I yelped, the pain turning into a delicious roar.
“Rage and violence consumes me and I have to hole myself away for fear of hurting someone.” He blew across my mound, brushing his fingers over the folds of my pussy. “I used to fuck my way out of it. I would let her do whatever she wanted because I didn’t know any better.” He kissed my belly button. “Then I met you. And you destroyed me. I lost myself but…” His hands spread me wider, his fingers digging into my thighs. “Fuck me, you smell delicious.” He shook himself. “I was found again when I fell in love with you.