his silence.
My skin prickles with pent-up energy when he ignores me like this.
“What am I supposed to do now?” I murmur. “How am I supposed to ask for forgiveness or move forward if I don’t know who or what I’m up against?”
“I’m sure they’ll show themselves.” He wipes the rest of my tears with his thumb.
“What if they don’t?”
“You’re strong, prom queen. You’ve escaped them three times, haven’t you?”
“How long do you think I can stay strong? What if I’m weak inside?” I sniffle, meeting his gaze. “Would you let me lean on you?”
He pauses at my cheek before he resumes his ministrations. “Why would you want that?”
“I just want to, okay?” I reach over and wrap my arms around his waist, my head resting against his heartbeat. “Don’t push me away, Ash.”
He stiffens. “It’s Asher.”
“Whatever, Ash is better.” I tighten my hold around his narrow, sculpted waist. My nose nuzzles in his T-shirt and I breathe him in, his sandalwood scent and his warmth. I don’t want to be apart from him anymore. I don’t want to fight the feelings I’ve developed for him.
“You’re playing with fire, Reina,” he says lowly, almost apologetically.
“Then I’ll just burn.”
It takes him a few seconds before he wraps an arm around my back and pats my head with the other one.
He’s hugging me. Asher is hugging me.
He pulls me into him and lets me sleep in the curve of his body, my neck hidden in his neck and my legs nestled between his.
“Just sleep,” he murmurs against my head, planting a chaste kiss on top.
As I close my eyes, I know I’ll sleep the best I have in ages.
Because I finally feel like I belong.
“We’ll be together forever?”
Her hand lies on my chest, where my heart beats loud, tears welling in her eyes. “Even if I’m not here in person, I’ll always be here, Rai.”
I nod several times and hold on to her hand like it’s the only line I have in life. “You’ll be okay, Rei.”
She smiles, her nose twitching a little. “No. We will be okay.”
When I speak, my voice is barely a whisper, “I love you, Reina.”
“Love you, too, Rai.”
My eyes shoot open to be greeted by the darkness.
Deep, uncontrollable darkness.
I open my mouth to shriek, but no sound comes out. A heavy weight settles on my chest, shifting as if about to burst through.
That’s when I realize I’m not breathing. Nothing is suffocating my air, so why the hell am I not breathing?
Breathe.
Breathe.
“Reina!”
My lungs kick into gear at that voice. That low, firm voice with the slight huskiness.
A light illuminates the room and with it, my lungs regain their functions. I gasp for air as if I were drowning and now I’m finally seeing the surface.
Strong arms hold me in a steel-like cage as I breathe in and out.
Inhale. Exhale.
Sandalwood and citrus.
Asher.
My nails dig into the thin material of his T-shirt as I stare up at him. Blurriness still clouds my vision from the tears in the dream—or memory.
He watches me with an indecipherable expression. His thick brows furrow downward as his thumb strokes the skin of my belly where my top meets my shorts.
Up and down. Up and down.
The friction his touch creates is like a soothing lullaby. A reason to breathe. To remain here.
Asher must’ve showered because his hair is half damp, falling over his forehead in a perfect mess. With the bedside lamp on, the green of his eyes flickers to a darker color like the night or… the unknown.
Why do I keep gravitating toward the unknown? Is it the thrill? The feeling of having my will taken away?
True, that unknown keeps the gloomy cloud at bay. Asher’s presence, although not always pleasant, has been an anchor.
Something I can lean on, something I can watch and breathe.
“What was it?” he asks in that suspicious tone that he’s been using with me since I woke up in the hospital.
It’s like I breathe and he suspects I have an ulterior motive behind that.
“Reina.”
One word. It’s just one word, my name, but he says it with so much authority, so much power, my thighs quiver.
How would it feel like if he used that voice while he’s inside me and —
I internally shake my head. That’s a totally wrong image at this time.
“It was…” My voice comes out hoarse as if I’ve been shrieking at the top of my lungs. I clear my throat. “Just a dream.”
“What kind of dream?” His piercing gaze remains the same, hard and unyielding.
He’s not