UnHinge Me (Savage Beast MC #6) - Hayley Faiman Page 0,72
I say it, maybe because I pretty much already know that it’s going to be positive. He takes a step back, his eyes wide and his entire body jerks.
“Pregnancy test,” he repeats the words, speaking so slowly that I wonder if he’s having an issue breathing.
Reaching for the bag in Ana’s hand, I thank her, then lift my gaze to meet Dutch’s. “Can I get a minute alone?” I ask.
He nods his head slowly but doesn’t move. Ana wraps her hand around his forearm and tugs him out of the bathroom. Closing the door behind them, I lock it and open the bag. The box is small, too small to contain the biggest piece of knowledge in my world.
If it’s positive, I don’t know what I’m going to do. Cry. But after that, I have no clue. I can’t scavenge and live on the streets again, not like I did when I left my father, not like I was planning to do after saving a little bit of cash. I can’t do any of that with a baby.
Opening the box, I scan the instructions, then get started. Once the test is taken and sitting on the edge of the counter, I watch it. Staring at it and wondering how my life is going to change in the next few seconds. It doesn’t take long, the answer is practically glowing back at me.
Positive.
Closing my eyes, a tear slowly trickles down my cheek. I wipe it away. I’m not sad. Not really. I’m terrified. That’s what I am. Completely and totally terrified. With shaky hands, I pick up the test and on trembling legs, I make my way toward the living room.
Dutch and Ana’s heads both swing around and their gazes clash with mine. They must know the answer without me having to say anything. They’re both standing and where Ana runs toward me, Dutch marches out the door, slamming it behind him.
“I’m pregnant,” I whisper.
Ana’s arms wrap around me as she pulls me against her body. “You’re going to be okay, it’s going to be okay,” she coos. “We will do this, together.”
“Together?” I ask.
She lifts her head, her gaze finding mine. “Together for as long as you need me.”
“You think I won’t need you?” I ask.
Her lips curve up into a grin. “Need? No. Someone else will take you from me, someone else will need you, and I’m okay with that, because that is where you’ll want to be.”
“You mean with Mountain?” I ask.
She nods. “Or whoever.”
I don’t ask her about the whoever part. I don’t want to know honestly. I can only handle so much, and this is all I can do at this point. I’m having a baby.
A baby.
A fucking baby.
Tears spring to my eyes. I don’t know what I’m doing or how I’m going to do it. I don’t know if I can. But at the same time, I don’t know if I cannot. This happened, it wasn’t planned, but I am free now.
I am free to live the life that I want, without the fear of abuse by a monster who is no longer breathing. If I was ever going to bring a child into the world, I suppose now is as good of a time as any. I mean, it’s not like I know what the fuck I’m doing, or that I’ll ever know.
“Am I crazy for thinking of keeping this child?” I ask.
“Not at all,” Ana whispers. “We’ll do this together if we need to.”
“What about you, your life?”
She’s quiet for a moment, her gaze flicking to her lap before it lifts to mine. “I fell in love with a man who can’t love me back because he doesn’t have any more room in his heart, he already loves two other people. So, my life is here, with you for now and yours is here with me. Everything happens for a reason.”
“It does,” I rasp.
MOUNTAIN
Taking a cigarette out of the box, I curse myself for starting to smoke again. I kicked the habit years ago, and now it’s all fucked again. Though, what the fuck else am I supposed to do when I’m on a stakeout? I can only eat so many fucking corn nuts.
“You got this shit under control?” Worm asks from next to me.
I like this kid. He’s a vet, he has his shit locked down tight, he’s smart as fuck and he knows computers like nobody else I’ve ever met.