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neck, “I’ll always keep you safe. I’ll never let you go, I promise.”
We lay together for several minutes as I let the guilt slowly start to wash over me, realizing the position I had just put myself in. The feeling that I was betraying Drake by sleeping with Logan soaked deep into my skin until I felt like I was drowning in it. I knew that technically I had done nothing wrong, Logan was my boyfriend and this was what was supposed to happen, but my heart told me a different story. It was screaming for Drake and I couldn’t deny it.
The worst part was that it took having sex with Logan again to come to my senses.
I rolled to face Logan, my heart in my throat as I opened my mouth to tell him everything. “Logan can we talk?”
He kissed my nose and smiled before standing, “Yeah, but can it wait? I have to be at work soon.”
I nodded as relief took over my body. I didn’t have to tell him just yet, I could wait. I felt guilty for not pushing the issue, but I couldn’t really lay everything out for him twenty minutes before he had to be at work.
Logan pulled me into a hug before pulling his clothes on, “You working tonight?”
“Yeah until close and the same thing tomorrow. I won’t have a free evening until Wednesday night.”
He grabbed his keys off the stand and turned to smile at me, “Ok, we’ll talk Wednesday then.”
Chapter Nineteen
And We All Fall Apart
Wednesday never came. Vanessa had some kind of plans and begged me to trade my Friday shift with her. I agreed, but I wasn’t happy with it. Not only was I forced to wait to talk to Logan yet again, but I had a Friday off and no excuse not to go to Drake’s show if Amber asked me. Luckily for me, Amber was so wrapped up in Adam she had barely even texted me throughout the week and I was let off the hook.
When Friday evening rolled around, Logan was curled up with me in my bed, helping me to study for a test I had the following Monday. He was an excellent tutor since he’d already taken the class last semester.
“I swear if I look at one more page my head is going to explode,” I groaned.
We had been at it for over two hours and my brain was passed the fried mark for the week. He gently took the book from my hands and set it on the floor before pulling me into his arms.
“Let’s take a break for a few.”
He leaned down and kissed me with such gentleness my heart melted. He and Drake were so different from each other, Logan so gentle and caring, Drake with raw passion and danger. Why was I laying here kissing Logan, yet all my thoughts were comparing him to Drake?
He deepened the kiss and started slowly sliding his hand under my shirt and up my stomach. I froze at the touch and pulled away.
“What’s wrong babe? If we’re going too fast just tell me. I thought after the other day…” he looked at me with concern in his eyes. I couldn’t do this to him any longer.
“Logan, remember how I wanted to talk to you the other day?”
He nodded but stayed silent.
“Well, there’s something I need to tell you,” I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before opening them to look at him again, “Something happened between Drake and me. Right after we got together I went over to his house to hang out and study for a couple of our classes. Neither of us intended anything to happen, but we ended up having sex. I am so sorry I didn’t tell you, I just couldn’t stand the thought of hurting you. It was an accident.”
He froze as he looked down at me, “An accident? What, you just accidentally fell on his dick?” he yelled, his face turning a violent shade of red I had never witnessed on him before. He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself before continuing. “Why are you telling me this now? Why wait all these months and then dump this on me?”
“I don’t know, I guess I just couldn’t take the guilt anymore, I don’t want to keep lying to you,” I stared into his eyes as I spoke and I could see the storm raging behind them even though he was attempting to stay calm.
“I’m glad