put a hand to her face, felt a cut on her lip, a loose tooth.
She was in a wain with the baggage train, her head on a grain sack, peering out through a slot in the wain’s tall sides. It was the closest to an isolation cell that Kol had been able to find at short notice. Jost and Vald had their very own wains a few score of paces away. Riv could hear Vald snoring, could hear the rhythmic shaking and rattling of his wain’s brackets as if they were in a storm.
It had been Vald’s face she’d seen in fight last night. He’d seen what had happened and come rushing, diving bodily into the melee.
He’s a good friend, coming to help like that. And now he’s in isolation for deserting his post!
Must control my temper, must control my temper, Riv recited to herself, over and over.
If I don’t get my temper under control I’ll never get to pass my warrior trial. I’ll never even get to take it. When Israfil hears about this …
She punched the side of the wain, hissed a string of curses and then sighed, setting about removing the splinters from her knuckles.
A whisper of wings, a silhouette blotting out the grey of dawn, and then Kol was alighting inside the wain, sitting down so that he was hidden from view from outside the wain, his great wings wrapping around him. He stared at Riv, his dark eyes fixing her, golden hair shimmering in the first glow of the sun.
‘Disobeying orders and sneaking into Oriens. Fighting guards. Let’s go back a little. Fighting on the weapons-field. Further. Fighting in the feast-hall, kicking your friend in the stones. Back further. You punch Israfil, the Lord Protector of the Ben-Elim, Overseer of the Land of the Faithful, in the face.’ His lips twitched at the last. ‘It would seem you have anger issues, Riv.’ He shook his head. ‘What am I to do with you?’
A silence settled between them, just his stare.
‘Was that a rhetorical question?’ she eventually asked, uncomfortable, ‘or do you want me to answer?’
Kol snorted a laugh at that. He laughed a lot, judging by the creases at his eyes.
‘I can only help you so much – like today in the market square. You must help yourself.’
‘Why do you care?’ Riv grunted. She knew it was churlish as soon as she said it, but she seemed to be doing a lot of things like that lately. Acting, speaking, doing, before thinking.
‘I like you, Riv.’ Kol shrugged. ‘You have spirit. I can see your mam in you, and your sister, and that is no insult. But keep on like this and you’ll never make the White-Wings.’
‘I know,’ said Riv with a frustrated sigh. ‘And that is my greatest, my only wish.’
‘Then let me help you make it come true,’ he whispered.
‘You would help me?’
‘Yes. If I can. But you must help yourself, too. Start by stopping your brawling. It won’t do. It’s spoiling your looks.’ He smiled then, a flash of white teeth and Riv felt herself blushing. Starlight highlighted the arch of his eyebrows and cheekbones, making the scar that ran from forehead to chin a dark valley. Somehow it made his face more handsome, different from the Ben-Elim’s perfection. And fierce. She was glad the sun hadn’t risen so far that Kol could see her blush. He reached a hand out, fingers brushing the cut on her lip. Riv fought the instinct to pull away, would have, if not for the wain’s board behind her head. Something about his touch sent a shiver through her.
‘You are so different from Israfil,’ she whispered, scared by his touch, the smile in his eyes, enjoying it, too.
‘He is too serious,’ Kol whispered, fingertips still brushing her cut lip. ‘This life of flesh, there is so much more to it than his constant frowning and his fixation with the Lore.’
Riv smiled, snorted a shocked laugh.
‘I thought the Lore was everything,’ she said.
‘Is it?’ Kol said. ‘The Kadoshim must be exterminated, it is the only way to fulfil our Holy Calling, to protect mankind. But as for the rest …’ He shrugged, a ripple of his wings. His fingers moved away from her lip, a caress on her cheek.
Footsteps, soft, a shape looming over the wain’s side.
‘Riv—’ her sister said as she looked into the wain, then froze, stared from Riv to Kol.
‘No,’ she said, a quiet voice, cold as winter, face hard and flat, but Riv could