in age.”
“I’d like that too. After growing up as an only child and seeing the way you are with your brother and the way you talk to your sister on the phone, I think I want a big family.”
“What’s big to you? Four is normal for me.”
I had no idea. Four sounded like a lot of kids.
“Let’s go normal. Maybe I should hold on to my number until I’ve spawned one. I might change my mind.”
“Probably wise.” His hand ran down my back to cup my ass. “I know I won’t have any problem knocking you up as many times as you want.”
How Leo put a smile on my face when I was only crying minutes ago was beyond me, but I was thankful.
Sliding my hand up his firm chest, I gripped the side of his neck. “I know I’ll definitely have fun practicing until that time comes.” Resting my forehead on his chin, my own chin quivered as I spoke. “I’m sorry for getting your hopes up or for freaking you out over nothing. I wish I could have remained calm until I took a test.”
“Don’t say that. I’m glad you told me when you did and you didn’t have to go through any of that alone. Do you want to stay down here and watch a movie?”
I desperately wanted to lie in this bed and have Leo’s arms wrapped around me, but I couldn’t monopolize his time when he rarely got to see his brother and his family.
“Why don’t we go upstairs for a while so you can hang out with your brother? Once they go to bed, I’d be more than happy to snuggle with you and watch a movie.” Or something else.
One of the things I loved most about my relationship with Leo was our connection and, of course, the insane sex we had. Before Leo, I had no idea sex could be as Earth shattering as it was with him.
“If you need time alone or with me, I understand. My brother will be here tomorrow, but the way you’re feeling right now is…I can’t imagine. But I do know you’re hurting deeply.”
It meant so much to me Leo understood, and he was willing to give up his time with his brother, but I wouldn’t do that to him. I’d seen how excited he was to visit his brother and his love for him.
“No, we’re going to go upstairs, and later if I need to, you can hold me as I cry.”
“Seeing how strong you are in this moment makes me love you more.” He stood and pulled me up and into his arms. “Give me a minute. I need to stop in the bathroom before we watch a movie with them. I have to warn you, Mason loves Marvel movies, so it will be some superhero movie.”
It was a good thing I loved Marvel and DC movies too. Although I would have sat through whatever they wanted to watch.
“Everly,” Leo called from the bathroom, “you might want to come in here.”
Being called into the bathroom was never a good thing. Surely my big, strong husband wasn’t calling me in to kill a spider for him.
“What is it?” I asked as I peeked inside, careful not to have some spider jump on me.
“Get over here.” He grabbed my hand and pulled me over to where he stood at the counter. “I don’t claim to know anything about pregnancy tests, but I thought two lines meant you’re pregnant.”
“It does. At least on the one I did.”
“Then why did you say you’re not pregnant.” He had a big grin as he held the stick in front of my face.
“There was only one line when I looked. Trust me when I say I looked for any type of faint line there could be and there was nothing.”
And it had broken my heart.
It was like we willed the pregnancy into existence from our sadness.
“Okay, there’s another test. Why don’t you wait until tomorrow morning and do it the first time you pee in the morning?”
Taking the test from him, I stared at the now double lines. “How do you know so much about pregnancy tests?”
“Because Luke told me once.” He shrugged like it was no big deal when Leo had single-handedly saved the day. “If you want, I’m sure you can talk to Alex about it. She’s been pregnant three times now, so I’m sure she knows the drill.”
He was right. I’d talk to Alex, and tomorrow I’d take another