I couldn’t possibly think of a match. Now. And I can’t help talking—I like stories, and telling them. And really, isn’t there another choice? Besides a match, and spinsters, and cats? Something—else?”
“You’re doing it again,” Phoebe said kindly. She put a finger to Wendy’s mouth. “Shhh.”
And then the sisters nodded to each other, in full agreement, full of themselves and very happy.
“I’ll send round my card,” Clara called as they walked off, arm in arm.
Wendy stood there watching them go and then looked at Snowball, who gazed dimly back.
This could be the beginning of something really big, and quite different. If she could do things properly, her lonely days batting around the house by herself would be over—there would be teas and salons and parties and group dog walks.
And boys.
And dances and happily-ever-afters, where she would attend balls and cotillions, and have a husband and children like Michael and John, and a different, perhaps less lonely old house.
Was that what she wanted?
Was it better or worse than what she had now?
Wendy managed one giant breath.
It was enough to get her home, running and heaving in a most unladylike fashion.
When she burst through the front door, Wendy was for the second time that day surprised by the presence of her parents.
She was a little frazzled, the dog basket dangling on her left elbow while she shook out her umbrella with her right hand, and deep, deep in her own thoughts. She needed time to reflect, to figure out the possibilities resulting from her interaction with the Shesbow twins. This meant journaling. And fiction. With her father home from work early and the new dog and everything, it felt like a day out of time, a holiday—so why not spend the afternoon writing up her latest ideas for Never Land? She would indulge herself, the same way other girls did with naps, baths, and dresses. She had been playing with the idea of linking all her stories together somehow, maybe into a novel.…
“Oh,” she said, blinking at the unexpected sight of her mother sitting at the kitchen table, her father standing over it, both with very, very serious expressions on their faces. Like someone had died.
And there, under her father’s hand, was the very notebook she had just been thinking about.
“Mother, Father,” she added, feeling something flutter and flop somewhere between her stomach and heart. A new organ, she told herself crazily. One whose sole purpose is to react to the uncomfortable tension in the air.
“Wendy,” Mr. Darling said in his lowest, most managerial voice.
“Darling,” Mrs. Darling said. “I think…I think we had better talk.”
Mr. Darling coughed suddenly, like he was trying not to look nervous.
Wendy had the strange notion of asking if she had been let go from the firm.
“You read my notebook,” she said instead.
“Yes, and really, darling, your writing is quite exquisite,” her mother said quickly. “Really. I had no idea you were so talented with words. Your descriptions…Your characterizations…Mademoiselle Gabineau has never mentioned your facility. At all.”
“She is unaware. May I have it, please?” Wendy said, unable to keep her eyes or attention off her book. The little dog waggled frantically in the basket, causing it to swing. She barely felt it.
“The thing is, darling,” her mother went on, “the stories themselves are…well…”
“Oh, enough of this blustering around,” Mr. Darling exploded. “They are the product of an infantile mind. The febrile imaginings of a child. I thought you had done with all this Peter Pan nonsense years ago! You’re sixteen now, for heaven’s sake, Wendy!”
“It’s my fault,” Mrs. Darling said apologetically. “I have always indulged my baby girl.”
“You haven’t changed at all since you were little, Wendy. These silly stories—”
“They aren’t silly,” Wendy said, offended by the word.
“Well, yes—yes they are, because they aren’t real! None of it is real, Wendy! Not a deuced thing! And you write them with yourself in the stories, like you’re some kind of hero, like you’re still pretending with your baby brothers! Like you think it’s all real!”
“I never believed it was—”
But her voice caught in her throat.
She couldn’t do it.
She could never knowingly lie about Never Land—she would never betray it that way.
Her parents saw her swallow. They saw her hesitation, her refusal to finish the sentence.
Her mother’s head sank toward her chest, and this hurt Wendy most of all.
Mr. Darling cleared his throat again.
“I think you have some growing up to do, Wendy. I think you need to see the world as it is, and what must be done in