stop whatever’s going to come for you. I’m not strong enough. I chose you over the world and I’m terrified that I’m still going to have to watch you die. Slayers die. Nina, I’m going to lose you.”
She leans against the fence, sobbing. I run to her and put my arms around her. “You’re not. You’re not going to lose me.” All her anger, all her bossiness, her weird shifts between pretending I’m not a Slayer and demanding I be one. It’s because she’s been absolutely terrified this whole time. I don’t know what to say.
“Promise me,” she says, still shaking. “I don’t care about the world. Just promise me that if it’s between saving anyone else and saving yourself, you’ll save yourself. Please.”
“Artemis, I—”
“Promise me!” she shouts, no longer crying.
“I promise,” I whisper.
She nods, wiping under her eyes. “Good. Okay. I’m going back to the castle to make sure everyone there is safe.” She picks up her sword. Then she runs, jumps the fence, and disappears into the night.
Stunned, I wander back into the house. Rhys has moved Cillian down to the couch.
“How are you?” I ask.
“Sore. But alive.” He smiles at me, his eyes low and heavy with sleepiness. There’s a tightness around them that’s new, though, and it breaks my heart.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“I really don’t.” He never talks to me about the real things, the scary things. I hope he talks to Rhys about them. We all need someone to tell the real things to. Artemis was my person.
And no one was hers. Except maybe Honora.
“Any sign of the demon?” Rhys asks.
“No.”
“Why would it go after Cillian, though? When there’s a whole village here? Was it Doug?”
“No. I don’t think so.”
Cillian nods in agreement. “It didn’t feel like him. His effect was far more pleasant. But I was never conscious for this, really. There was a dream I couldn’t wake up from. Heavy weight on my chest. Also I’m pretty sure the demon was, umm, interested in getting up close and personal with me in a romantic sense.”
“What?” Rhys and I both exclaim in unison.
“Nothing actually physical took place! There was just a . . . vibe to the whole thing. I would have told the demon that it was not my type, but I was frozen. Really not my idea of a good time.”
I grimace. “I had forgotten that part of the first dream. Old Smythe seemed pretty into it.”
“Forgot, or deliberately repressed?” Cillian asks.
“Definitely the second.”
“Succubus,” Rhys says, snapping.
“Seriously sucky,” Cillian agrees.
“No, I mean ‘succubus.’ Attacks during sleep. Sucks out energy. Incubus-type demons too. It fits. I’ll do some research.” He looks at Cillian, worried. Research means going back to the castle.
“I’ll do the research,” I say. Rhys smiles in relief and gratitude. I turn back to Cillian. “So we know that you’re a target. We need to figure out why.” If it wasn’t Doug, what other demon would have it out for Cillian? His only connection to the castle and Cosmina is—me. Oh gods. Did the demon go after Cillian because he’s my friend? Or because he knows I’m a Slayer? Is this my fault?
Cillian shakes his head. “Maybe I’m just irresistible to everyone, human and demon alike.”
“Regardless, we aren’t leaving you alone. I’d say take him back to the castle, but the demon has already struck there.”
Rhys sits on the armchair in the corner. He has a wickedly sharp dagger in his hands. “If this thing only attacks when people are sleeping, that makes me think it’s not so strong.” His smile is as menacing as the blade. Sometimes I forget that Rhys had to pass a lot of tests to get Watcher status—not all of them purely brain powered. “I’m not going anywhere. And the demon is welcome to try again.”
Cillian’s expression is sloppy with exhaustion but happier than I have maybe felt in my entire life. This is my fault. I’m the one who got Cillian involved, who brought him in on our secrets. And if my suspicion is correct, I’m the reason he was targeted.
“Okay.” I kiss Cillian on the forehead. “You rest. You could not be in better hands.” I walk out into the night.
Artemis is right. It’s time to make the hard decisions. It’s time to be a Slayer. But in order to do that, I need all the information. And some of that information won’t be found in the library.
It’s time to confront my mother.
28
I CHECK MY MOTHER’S ROOM first. It’s 4 a.m.