Auntie Jo asked how I got so dirty, I would just tell her playing was a messy business.
When satisfied with my work, I made my way over the hill and past the mausoleums, careful to hold my breath as I ran the length of them.
I expected the girl to be sitting on the bench, but she wasn’t.The bench was empty, save for a few red maple leaves caught in the metalwork. Clearing off a spot, I took a seat and opened my comic to the center, to the bulky paperback I hid within the pages, the book with the smiling boy and unsmiling girl on the cover. I turned to the first page and began to read.
Two days later, I returned to the cemetery. The day after that, too. The bench was always empty. I went back every day for the rest of that summer and long into the school year, but I wouldn’t see the girl again for nearly another year.
I never noticed the man watching me from the trees, sometimes there, sometimes not.
August 8, 1985
Nine Years Old
Log 08/08/1985—
Subject “D” within expected parameters.
Audio/video recording.
“Is everything recorded?”
“Not everything. Almost, though. Pay attention. I’m only going to explain this once.”
“Sorry.”
“Fresh tapes are in those boxes under the desk. If someone is in there, you always record. If he’s talking, even if he’s alone in there, you most definitely record. That stuff is gold, that’s what they really want. Be careful what you say here in the booth. The microphones pick that up, too, and it will be part of the record. If things get crazy, keep your mouth shut. Doesn’t matter how crazy. Keep your mouth shut and do your job.”
“Load fresh tapes.”
“Yes.”
“Can I ask you a question?”
“As long as it’s not a stupid question.”
“I was told not to listen to him. Not to let him talk to me.”
“They solved that problem a few years ago. Pretty simple, really. Everything is on a delay. What you see and hear on these monitors actually happened thirty seconds earlier. It’s safe that way.”
“If that’s the case, why’s he wearing a mask?”
—Charter Observation Team – 309
1
“Help me clear this off,” Auntie Jo said, peeling away a vine that somehow managed to snake up out of the ground and wrap around Momma’s headstone in the two days since I had been out here.
I tugged at the base, and a clump of dirt came out with the plant.
I caught her studying Daddy’s stone—the lack of dirt, no moss growing in the carved letters.
“How you can possibly have feelings for the man who killed your mother is beyond me.”
I knew better than to say anything. Correcting her would only lead to an argument, and I wanted to check the bench.
Aside from a couple of days during the winter, I had walked out to the bench nearly every day, and every day I found it empty. I even took to trying different times of the day on the off chance I was just missing her, but still, she was never there.
I didn’t see her in school, either. She said she was the same age as me, and all the kids in this neighborhood went to Lincoln Elementary. That meant she lived somewhere else, but if that was the case, then why was she in the cemetery that day? Who was she visiting? I couldn’t help but think of the woman with her. Why the gun? Maybe the woman kidnapped her, brought her to the cemetery to—to what? That didn’t make sense, either. Nothing about the encounter made sense, and I guess that’s why I couldn’t get her out of my head.
Auntie Jo spread the blanket over the graves and handed me a sandwich—ham and American cheese on white. About a week ago, I noticed she stopped buying Wonder Bread and instead brought home the store brand. Our peanut butter was no longer Jiffy, either. The jar just said Peanut Butter across the front on a plain label. When I asked, she said the diner wasn’t doing as well as it used to and her hours got cut. If things didn’t change soon, she might have to pick up a second job. I offered her my savings, now at one hundred twenty-three dollars, but she wouldn’t take the money.
“Read,” she said, nodding at Momma’s gravestone.
“Seriously? Again?”
“Read.”
“Kaitlyn Gargery Thatch. February 16, 1958 to August 8, 1980. Loving wife, mother, and sister.” I didn’t have to look at the stone. I had memorized the text of both long ago.
“Five years,” Auntie