I shifted, reaching out to him. “Please, just let me explain. I’ll—”
“Wrong answer,” he uttered bitingly, his expression shutting down. “I can’t believe you . . . after everything . . . that we’re back here again.” He turned, leaving me shocked, openmouthed as he stormed down our hall. A door slammed and I hopped off the bed and into the hall to watch a light come on, shining under the guest bedroom door.
Tears choked me and I swallowed the hitch in my breathing as I tiptoed back into our bedroom. My husband and I had fought quite a few times in the last few years, but not once had Braden let it come between us. He always slept in our bed with me and he always pulled me close at night.
The hot tears slipped down my cheeks.
I’d hurt him.
And for the first time in a really long time, he’d hurt me too.
***
That whole night I tossed and turned, my eyes on the hallway. A big part of me wanted to go into our guest room and shake Braden awake and make him listen to me, but the more I lay there and the more I thought everything over, I thought it best to let him sleep so we could have a rational conversation in the morning.
Except, I was exhausted from lack of sleep. I got up just before six in the morning, sitting in the kitchen drinking coffee and attempting to read a book. Just before Braden’s alarm was set to go off, I got up and made some fresh coffee for him.
Not too long after, he wandered into the kitchen in his pajamas, his hair in disarray, and I ached with hurt and love as he avoided my eyes.
“I made you coffee,” I told him quietly, trying to gauge whether or not this would soften him up.
“Thank you,” he muttered, taking hold of the mug. He leaned against the counter, staring at the wall.
My stomach flip-flopped unpleasantly.
I had to explain so he’d stop thinking the worst of me.
“Braden—”
“I have to shower.” He walked out of the kitchen abruptly.
“We need to talk!” I yelled at him angrily.
His answer was to slam the bathroom door.
This was a whole new side to my husband. And I did not like it one bit.
I got up, ready to do battle, when a knock at the door stopped me. That knock was followed by a key turning in the lock, and I knew then it was Ellie.
Bracing myself, I wondered if I’d be able to handle two of my favorite people being so mad at me. Three years ago that would have been a piece of cake. But these idiots had softened me up, whether I liked to admit it or not.
Ellie appeared in the kitchen doorway, her blue eyes instantly finding me.
Whatever she saw in my face made her pale and she came straight at me, arms wide-open.
I relaxed into her hug, not even realizing until right then how much I needed it.
“I don’t even know if I should say congratulations.”
I tensed.
Ellie pulled back, peering at me cautiously. “Braden’s really upset.”
I couldn’t speak. I wanted to. But I was afraid if I did I would scream.
“Look, I’m here, Joss.” She rubbed my shoulder in comfort. “I’m here if you need me.”
Swallowing past the gust of screams, I nodded and thanked her hoarsely.