“I didn’t start any show.” I’m surprised I can speak with the stimuli shooting rampant all over my body.
“Oh, but you did. You kept thrusting in and out of your cunt even after you saw me. Were you fantasising about my dick inside you, Butterfly?”
“No!” My voice is defensive, full of shame.
“You know, the more you say that, the surer I am about how much of a liar you are.”
“I’m not lying…ohhh…” My words end in a moan when he releases my arse and plunges two fingers inside me in one go.
The itch from earlier returns with a vengeance and I arch my back, needing more friction. Just more of him.
“Your pussy doesn’t lie, she’s telling me she wants my dick.” He curls his fingers and I moan again, my head collapsing against the tile. “Do you want me inside you, Butterfly?”
“No,” I whisper, my voice desperate.
“Are you sure?”
Of course I do, but I’m not saying it out loud. I’m not going to let him break me into speaking it.
He pushes his hard cock into the crack of my arse and I clench, biting my lower lip.
“It seemed like you wanted it earlier when you were watching my dick and fucking yourself.”
I shut my eyes, unable to take the assault of his words and his touch at the same time. I’m so close to combusting, to begging, but I’ll never do that.
Cole isn’t someone I should let do this to me.
I only want him because I can’t have him, because if anyone found out about what we’re doing behind closed doors, they would shun us.
And that’s sick. Just utterly sick.
If my only form of defence is defying him, then so be it. That’s what he’ll get.
“Open your eyes.”
I don’t.
He grabs a fistful of my hair and spins me around. His fingers slip out of me and I mourn the loss, my walls contracting as if trying to keep him inside.
My back flattens against the cold tiles, causing me to gasp, but I don’t open my eyes.
“Look at me.”
“No.”
He tugs on my hair. “Are you or are you not going to look at me?”
“No.”
“I’m going to fuck that word out of you, Silver.”
My insides liquefy at that promise, but I hang on to my façade with blood-coated fingers. “Just get it over with and leave me alone.”
“You don’t get to treat it as a burden when you’ve been fucking fantasising about it. You don’t get to tell yourself lies just so you can sleep at night.”
Watch me.
He wraps a hand around my throat and squeezes. Hard.
My eyes pop open as I struggle for breath. He eases his hold, allowing me tiny gulps of air.
“There you are.” He stares down at me with those eyes that I sometimes think have no soul behind them.
They’re green, but they feel black.
They’re looking at me, but sometimes, it’s like they’re seeing through me.
He’s gripping me by the hair and the throat, and for some foreign reason, it feels like the most right position to be in.
“I’m going to fuck you and you’re going to scream.” He licks my trembling lower lip. “If you don’t, we can do this all night.”
I don’t speak. I can’t.
It’s like I’ve lost my abilities of speech and thought. I’ve lost everything.
All I can do is watch him. The water forms rivulets down his face giving him an exotic look, the steam of the bathroom swirling around him like a halo.
I’m fucked. So bloody fucked.
He releases my hair and grabs my thigh, lifting it up and, as a result, making my other foot stand on a tiptoe.
“Wrap your legs around my waist,” he orders, but I don’t.
I want him to do it all.
If I don’t participate, I can pretend I didn’t want this. It’s all his doing, not mine.
He must see it in my face because he grabs my other leg and lifts it, slipping inside me, inch by each agonising inch. I close my eyes, but it’s to soak in the sensation.
I tighten my legs around his firm waist to not lose my balance. The force of his thrusts hits my back against the wall over and over again.
I relish in every one of them.
Cole is harsh and out of control, exactly how I imagined he would be when I was fantasising about him earlier.
He squeezes my throat hard enough to make me open my eyes.
“You don’t get to hide, Butterfly.” He peers at me. “Not anymore.”
Yesterday, when he fucked me from behind, I was slightly