Oh Lord, Help Me Keep My Panties on - By Lynda Burton Page 0,55
late! The caterer arrived an hour late and was rushing around. My bridesmaid and the bakery company were two hours late and nothing seemed to be going right.
Last but not least, when my maid of honor arrived at my house with my dress an hour before the ceremony I was watching a movie on TV. Meanwhile, Errol was in the backyard drinking the champagne out of the bottle with his groomsmen while I watched them from my bedroom window. I was mortified! I was a wreck!
Now, if that wasn’t an omen . . . . I should have followed my mind. I should have stopped the wedding before it started and turned my wedding day into “I’m sorry, I’m not getting married and going down like that party. But, I wanted to get married; unfortunately it was for the wrong reasons. So, against my better judgment, I walked down the isle and said I do anyway.”
Damn, I was not only going to be a bride and a wife, I was also going to turn into an instant mother all in the same day! I thought to myself. Who would have thought!
I remember the first couple of weeks that we lived together. It was kinda fun. Then around month three reality set in. One morning I went to take a shower and when I came out of the bathroom I found the kids rummaging through my night table and dresser draws. I asked. Denise and Kirk why are you in my room and what are you looking for. Denise rolled her eyes at me then said. This is our dad’s room and we’re looking for his calculator. Mean while Kirk was looking at me like he was annoyed at the question. I informed Errol of the incident and was shocked when he ignored my complaint and never said anything to the kids. The next incident happened the week the kids returned to school after the Thanksgiving. Denise was caught stealing from one of her classmates and suspended from school. During her week’s suspension from school, she had boys in and out of the house without our permission. She was constantly rummaging through my jewelry box and helping herself to my stuff and not returning it. Then I found out that his son Kirk was fighting in school and also suspended the same time that his sister was. At the same time I discovered that Kirk was stealing money out of my pocketbook.
Last but not least was when Errol began sneaking money out of our joint bank account. One night while attempting to balance the check book I discovered several discrepancies. I would deposit our paychecks into a joint account, which was setup solely for our household bills. Then, without my knowledge Errol would go to the ATM and make withdrawals when ever he needed money! Then out of the clear blue sky, he started running up his Master Card account on all kinds of expensive stereo equipment.
Then when the bills started coming; Errol started making all kinds of excuses as to why he couldn’t pay the bills when they came it. Then the collection calls and delinquent notices started, I was going crazy! The life that I once knew was no longer peaceful; it had become everything I loath. It had become hectic, stressful, and I was soon surrounded by lies and deceit.
The straw that broke the camel’s back was the day I found out my husband (of eight months) was cheating on me! Shit, he didn’t waste anytime did he! That bastard! I had taken my car to the dealers for a tune up and to get a couple of things checked out and was able to talk the service manager into letting me have a loaner car for the day. I had a little running around to do but decided since the kids were at the movies, Hobbs was at the groomers and Errol was probable bowling that I’d go home and nurse my headache. I parked the loaner car in front of the house, walked inside poured a glass of juice, and went directly to my room. I fumbled around a few minutes looking for aspirins in my night table. I took two pills then jumped into bed fully dressed. I pulled the covers over my head to shield the light from my eyes and got comfortable. My headache was so intense the slightest noise was magnified. About fifteen minutes later as the pain started to subside, and