Never Give Up - Heidi Lis Page 0,44
door, and my eyes are closed. I’m hoping she’ll think I’m asleep, because I don’t have the energy to have a long, drawn out talk. Not tonight. I hold my breath, waiting for her to say something or better yet turn around and go to her room.
Yet nothing. I realize I’m mentally ticking off the seconds.
As I let out a hesitant sigh, I feel my bed dip as someone sits down next to me. Guess, I can’t hide from this. I turn my head, and can see who crawled into my bed as the brightness of the moon sends a ray of light, hitting my bed. It highlights my visitor perfectly, lightening up his face.
“Micah,” I whisper in total shock.
“Hey, pretty girl. I had to come back and check up on you.”
My eyes squint as I struggle to look over his shoulder. “Where’s Liza?”
His head tilts to the side before he sighs. “My place, she is out cold. Had too much to drink, and passed out like a light. I took her keys, and came back here, hoping like hell Nick was not still here.”
I let out a timid ‘ah.’ Answering his prayer, I say, “He left, and I don’t expect him back anytime soon.”
Micah’s eyes widen, registering what my words could potentially mean. “Left as in for good?”
Yeah, he sounded a little hopeful!
I nod, with my lips tightly closed. “It was a mistake to think we could ever be more than friends. It wasn’t meant to be, he saw it, and so did I.” This is the first time since Micah came back into the picture, that I’ve admitted to anyone, including myself, that Nick and I were never going to work.
“Thank fuck.” Micah wastes no time lowering his body to mine. His arms wrap around my shoulders, and he takes my lips in a panty melting kiss. My resolve is beyond shot, so I willingly go to him. I’m not fighting this feeling anymore, I’m going to savor being this close to him again. Snaking his arm under my knees he adjusts our bodies so I’m lying underneath his rock hard body. His moans and my sobs are the only sounds that echo in my room.
With each breath he takes, he’s whispers in my ear. “Baby, I’ve missed you so much.”
“Micah.” I whisper in a dreamlike state. “Are you really here with me right now?” My wielding emotions with the reality of him being here, swell into loud sobs. My body’s trembling as the gravity of this moment finally registers.
Micah takes my hand in his, and plants a sweet kiss. “Yeah, pretty girl, and I’m never leaving you again.” His words are music to my ears.
Oh is it possible?
“How…what about Liza?” With my mind slowly clearing, all I can see is Liza in my mind and I panic. The thought of hurting her is not a welcome thought.
“Ssshhh,” He says pressing a finger to my lips. “Not now, not tonight. This is about us and what we need. What we mean to each other. God. Please, let me love you, El? Jesus. Let me love you like I have dreamt of doing for the past five years.”
I’m so lost, his words take me to new heights. My mind’s in a fog, and the only thing I can concentrate on is his larger than life body. He’s touching me, kissing me, wanting me. I want him, I need him, and my body’s yearning to rekindle what we once had.
“Dear Lord Micah, make me remember how good it was. I need you.” I’m so desperate and needy. Each aching cry that escapes my throat, is a yearning desire to touch him. I’m so unbelievably desperate to connect with what we once had. How the hell could I ever think, I could ever feel this with anyone else? “I miss what it feels like to be with you, I’ve never forgotten, though. Micah, I need it again. I need to feel what it feels like to be loved by you. My dreams remember every moment of our night together.”
Rocking his body against mine, he places kisses on the tip of my nose. “I’ve never forgotten, either, it’s only you baby. No one could ever take your place in my heart and soul, Elsa. I fucking can’t help how much I love you, I never gave up hope of finding you again.”
Both of us bare our souls to one another while staring into each other’s eyes. I can’t help myself. My deep