even more clear. His eyes burned when he considered what had happened instead. He’d had fun with Pisch and White, but to them he’d just done something stupid and he wouldn’t ever again.
Reaching out, Ryan put his hand on Braxton’s cheek with a light pressure until he turned to face him. “What was that thought?”
Pressing his tongue into his bottom lip, Braxton stared into Ryan’s eyes, his own burning as Ryan somehow forced him to face his own feelings with nothing but a calm look. “That night was really bad for me. Not the stuff after, that was fun, but also…shallow. I wish…I wish there was a way to make that feeling go away.”
“You need closure. You need to face that what you did wasn’t okay, for either of us.” Ryan’s framed Braxton’s jaw with his hand. “I think a punishment will do that, but you’re right. I wasn’t your Dom. You hadn’t given me that control yet. You still haven’t.”
“I want to.”
“Then I’ll take it.” Ryan brushed his lips over Braxton’s, a light, soothing kiss that eased away the uncertainty, while still making Braxton want to cry.
He wasn’t even sure why. His emotions were suddenly all over the place. He blinked fast as Ryan drew away from him and started the car. No way was he going to break down. The man wasn’t sure if he could take this and falling apart now would only show him he was right.
Ryan shot him a concerned glance when he straightened and rubbed his hands over his face. Then his expression hardened. “It’s like that, is it? You’ve been shutting off your feelings more and more since that night with me. And that’s my fault.”
“No it’s not, you weren’t—”
“Your boyfriend or your Dom. But for the next two days, I am. And if nothing else, I’ll help you regain that confidence you had. I’ll make it so you aren’t afraid to cry.”
Sniffling a little, Braxton laughed. “I’m not spending the next two days crying. That won’t convince you to keep me.”
“Don’t be so sure about that.”
This had to be the weirdest conversation he’d ever had with anyone. But he could tell Ryan wasn’t joking. His breath caught as he realized he’d just hopped in the car of a man he hardly knew and agreed to give up control for the next two days.
He should be very afraid. Ryan didn’t sound like he planned to make this easy.
And for some reason, that excited Braxton even more.
Chapter 11
Like the last time Braxton had been here, he noticed Ryan surveying the area for any threat. Not as though he was really worried, more out of habit. Unlike last time though, there wasn’t the same sense of urgency coming from the other man. Braxton wanted there to be, he wanted to be pulled past the front door and fucked on the closest hard surface.
Instead, he followed Ryan in, chewing on his bottom lip and watching as he took off his shoes. Was this part of the punishment they’d talked about? Was Ryan gonna give him the silent treatment?
Once he’d straightened, Ryan turned to face him, arms folded over his chest. His lips quirked slightly as he watched Braxton fidget. “No need to be nervous, boy. You can end all this with a word.”
“I don’t want to end anything.” Braxton hiked up his chin. “And I’m not nervous, I just want to know what the fuck you plan—”
Ryan’s expression hardened and Braxton decided now would be a very good time to stop talking. He swallowed hard even as the blood began to pulse into his dick. All right, maybe he was a bit nervous. The man was scary with that look in his eyes and for some reason it was damn hot.
But Braxton didn’t want to piss him off. He didn’t want Ryan to regret giving him the next two days, after he’d been determined to give him nothing. They had amazing chemistry. Braxton wanted to be the man who Ryan wanted at the end of a rough day. The man Ryan got everything he needed from.
He just had no clue where to start.
Moving closer to him, Ryan stroked his cheek and lightly clucked his tongue. “Braxton, stop trying to anticipate what I want from you. You’re exactly where you wanted to be.” He tipped Braxton’s chin up with a finger, kissing him with a gentle press of his lips, sliding his tongue into his mouth, every movement so slow it put Braxton in a zone where