bigoted mess, and its members were constantly trying to one-up each other. If, by the end of your first year, you didn’t fuck who they wanted you to fuck, you were out. Of course, there were other terms they used when kicking you out so the president of SCC didn’t get involved. No one outside of the fraternity knew about it, either. It wasn’t really hazing, but that’s what it was.
Though Dean had been dating Mel at the time, his hazing involved fucking another girl and bringing back her used underwear as a trophy. He didn’t stop, though. Dean kept going, fucking around behind Mel’s back, and when she found out, she broke up with him.
And, wouldn’t you fucking know, it was right then that my turn was up.
I was stupid. I’d made a mistake. It was something I couldn’t take back, something I regretted.
Whatever hope I had that Kelsey and I could maybe work—because after all, she’d started opening up to me, which had made me happier than I wanted to admit—was gone. This was payback for what I did; karma. This was fucking karma, and she’d be a raging bitch until I was on my knees.
I could never have Kelsey. Not really. Once she found out the truth, she’d drop me as fast as she could. I supposed I could tell Kelsey the truth, beat Dean to the punch and hope she wouldn’t react as I thought she would, but that would involve me being a good guy, and I think we all knew by now I wasn’t a good guy.
A good guy wouldn’t have picked up the broken shards of Mel’s heart and put them back together, only to shatter them into even more pieces when he dumped her. Right after fucking her, too.
Yeah. I wasn’t a good guy.
I was the worst.
Chapter Fourteen – Kelsey
Levi was nearly late to lab the next week, and I pretended not to care. Mostly I pretended that I didn’t care so I would start to believe it myself. The fact was, Levi was always on time, so when I walked into the room and saw that his chair was empty—the first class after we had sex—I couldn’t help but get a sinking feeling in my gut.
It was right as I was mentally scolding myself that Levi showed up, meeting my eyes almost instantly. I watched him hurry through the main aisle, sitting down beside me just as the professor strolled out of the backroom and got the projector going. We were going to learn about whatever experiment we would be doing this week. Fun stuff.
Not really, but whatever.
I eyed Levi up, refusing to focus on the warming in my lower gut. “You seem stressed, Blue,” I whispered, causing his azure stare to snap to me. He hadn’t shaved this morning, and I bet that stubble on his jaw would give me the worst kind of stubble burn.
What the hell was I thinking? Wasn’t I supposed to tell this guy what happened Friday night was a one-time thing? My vagina needed to get herself under control. Cool it before she lost it completely.
I was worried she already lost it.
Me.
I was worried I already lost it when it came to Levi.
“Yeah,” he said, shrugging. “Not my day, I guess.” He leaned forward, his mouth a thin line as he paid attention to the professor and the projector, even though it wasn’t fully booted up yet. This was not how he normally acted. Was this…was this him trying to tell me Friday meant nothing? Was this his way of brushing me off?
What. The. Flying. Fuck?
I said nothing else, silently fuming all throughout class. The moment we were done, I practically ran out of there. I didn't really run—that would’ve been calling too much attention to myself—but I did power walk. I could not stand to look at Levi’s brooding, pensive face anymore.
I wanted to punch him. I wanted to punch him so hard. I mean, what the fuck?
My feet were on the grass, cutting the shortest distance to the sidewalk that would lead me away from the science building, when I heard the bastard himself call out my name: “Kelsey, wait.”
I froze, knowing I should just keep going, knowing I shouldn’t give him the light of day. A tiny, miniscule part of me wondered if I was leaping to conclusions, but I didn’t care. I did not appreciate a hot and cold guy. That was yet another reason why I didn’t do relationships. Couldn’t