I shoved against him. Our embrace had been such a complete and passionate surrender that my sudden rejection caught him by surprise. He staggered back, letting me slip through the double embrace of his arms and wings.
"No!" I was shaking my head back and forth like a crazy woman. "I am not her! I am Zoey Redbird, and if I love someone, it's because he's worth loving, and not because I'm a piece of dirt that's been brought to life."
His amber eyes narrowed as anger flashed across his face. He started toward me.
"No!" I screamed. I was jolted awake to the sounds of Nala hissing like crazy and someone sitting on the side of my bed, trying to defend himself against my flailing arms.
"Zoey! It's okay. Wake up! Ow! Shit!" the guy said as my fist connected with his cheek.
"Get away from me!" I cried.
He trapped both of my wrists in one of his hands. "Get a grip!" Then he reached out and flipped on my bedside light.
I blinked up at the guy who was sitting on my bed rubbing his cheek.
"Stark, what the hell are you doing in my room?"
Chapter Twenty-four
"I was walking by in the hall out there and I heard your cat yowling and hissing, and then you started yelling. I thought you were in trouble." Stark glanced over at my heavily draped window. "Thought maybe a Raven Mocker had gotten in here. Cats really hate them, you know. Anyway, that's why I came busting in."
"You just happened to be walking by my room at--" I glanced at my clock. "At noon?"
He shrugged, and his lips tilted up in that cocky smile of his that I liked so much. "Well, I guess it was more planned than coincidence."
"You can let go of me now," I said.
Reluctantly, his hold on my wrists relaxed, but he didn't actually let go of me. I had to pull my hands from his.
"That must have been one awful nightmare," he said.
"Yeah, it was.&r&!h)dquo; I scooted back so that I leaned against the headboard of my bed. Nala had settled down and was curled against my side.
"So, what was it about?"
I ignored his question and said, "What are you doing here?"
"I told you. I heard noise from in here and--"
"No, I mean why were you outside my door to begin with? And, it's noon. All the red fledglings I know don't do well in the sunlight and are seriously sound asleep right now."
"Yeah, I could sleep, but what ever. And there's no sunlight out there. Everything's all gray and icy."
"Jeesh, the ice storm's still going on?"
"Yeah, another front is moving through today. It would suck to be a human trying to deal with this mess without all the generators and stuff this school has."
What he said made me wonder whether the nuns had a generator at their abbey. I really needed to talk to Sister Mary Angela. Talk to her? Hell, I needed to go there. I missed my grandma, and I was seriously sick of feeling like I was in danger all the time. Unbelievably tired, I sighed. How long had I slept? I counted in my head about five hours. Ugh. And a bunch of that time had been spent in a weird dream place with Kalona, which couldn't be all that restful. "Hey, you look tired," Stark said.
"You haven't answered my question. Why did you come here? I mean really."
He stared at me and blew out a long breath. Then he said, "I needed to see you."
"Why?"
His brown eyes met mine. He looked so much like the pre-dead undead Stark that it was disconcerting. At that moment his eyes were normal, and there was no scary darkness pulsing from the shadows around him. Only the red outline of his tattoo reminded me that he was different from the kid who had told me secrets and asked for my help in the field house just a few nights ago.
"They'll make you hate me," he blurted.
"Who's they? And no one is going to make me feel anything." As soon as I said it, a picture of me in Kalona's arms flashed through my mind, but I purposely shoved the all-too-graphic image away.
"They--Everyone," he said. "They'll tell you I'm a monster, and you'll believe them."
I kept looking at him, silently and steadily. He was the first to look away.