of a blood ritual. He's against it."
"Sounds like a sensible man." She angled her head. "Come on back. You can have what's probably your tenth cup of coffee of the day, and I'll have some tea while you tell me his very sensible reasons."
"His first, and most emphatic echoed something you said." Gage followed her into the kitchen. "We could let something out we aren't prepared for. Something worse, or stronger, simply because of the ritual."
"I agree." She put the kettle on, and while it heated, started to measure for a fresh pot of coffee. "Which makes it essential not to rush into it. To gather all information possible first, and to proceed with great care."
"So you're voting to do it."
"I am, or I'm leaning that way, once we're as protected as possible. Aren't you?"
"I figure the odds at fifty-fifty, and that's good enough."
"Maybe, but I'm hoping to weigh them a little heavier in our favor first." She lifted a hand, pressed it against her eye. "I've been..."
"What is it?"
"Maybe I've been at the monitor too long today. My eyes are tired." She reached up to open the cupboard for cups, missed the handle by inches. "My eyes are... Oh God. I can't see. I can't see."
"Hold on. Here, let me look." When he took her shoulders to turn her, she gripped his arm.
"I can't see anything. It's all gray. Everything's gray."
He turned her around, bit off his own sharp intake of breath. Her eyes, those exotic gypsy eyes, were filmed over white.
"Let's sit you down. It's a trick. It's just another trick. It's not real, Cybil."
But as she clung to him, shuddering, he felt himself fade away.
He stood in the dull and dingy apartment he'd once shared with his father over the bowling alley. The smells struck him with violent memory. Whiskey, tobacco, sweat, unwashed sheets and dishes.
There was the old couch with the frayed arms, and the folding chair with the duct-taped X over the torn seat. The lamp was on, the pole lamp beside the couch. But that had been broken, Gage thought. Years ago, that had been broken when he'd shoved his father back. When he'd finally been big enough, strong enough to use his fists.
No, Gage thought. No, I won't be here again. He walked to the door, grabbed the knob. It wouldn't budge, no matter how he turned, how he pulled. And in shock he looked at the hand on the knob, and saw the hand of a child.
Out the window then, he told himself as sweat slid down his back. It wouldn't be the first time he'd escaped that way. Fighting the urge to run, he went into his old room- unmade bed, a scatter of school books, single dresser, single lamp. Nothing showing. Any treasures-comics, candy, toys-he'd hid away, out of sight.
The window refused to open. When he was desperate enough to try, the glass in it wouldn't break. Whirling around, he looked for escape, and saw himself in the mirror over the dresser. Small, dark, thin as a rail. And terrified.
A lie. Another lie. He wasn't that boy now, he told himself. Wasn't that helpless boy of seven or eight. He was a man, full grown.
But when he heard the door slam open, when he heard the stumbling tread of his drunken father, it was the boy who trembled.
FOX BEAT AND KICKED AT THE SPIDERS. THEY covered his desk now, spilled in a waterfall from the edge to the floor. They leaped on him, hungrily bit. Where they bit, their poison burned, and the flesh swelled and broke like rotted fruit.
His mind couldn't cool, couldn't steady, not with dozens of them crawling up his legs, down his shirt. He stomped them into the floor, into the rug, while his breath whistled out between gritted teeth. The pocket doors he'd left open slammed shut. As he backed against them, the windows ran black with spiders.
He shook like a man in a fever, but he shut his eyes, ordered himself to control his breathing. As they crawled and clawed and bit, as they covered him he wanted to give in and scream.
I've seen worse than this, he told himself. His heart pounded, hammer to anvil, as he struggled for some level of calm. Sure, I've seen worse. I've had worse, you fucker. Just a bunch of spiders. I'd call the exterminator tomorrow except they're not real, you asshole. I can wait you out. I can wait till you run out of juice.
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