had been.
And her mouth had been fucking good.
He moved his kisses to her cheek, her jaw, and held still. “You okay?”
“Mmhm.” The sound was strained, a body that had been fluid around him suddenly rigid.
He looked down at her. “Don’t do that. Just tell me what you need, and I’ll give it to you.”
She exhaled, closing her eyes. “Right. Okay. Just… stay still for a second. Kiss me.”
Evan obliged. He was aware of the fact that, because of his size—or specifically, girth—he had to be careful with people, the first time. He didn’t care if he had to wait a minute, or five, or ten, for someone to get used to him.
He did care about the fact that Ruth seemed suddenly hesitant beneath him, her kisses soft and uncertain, her body stiff.
“Talk to me,” Evan whispered against her lips. “We talk now. Remember?”
“Right.” He felt her smile. That was a good sign. “Sorry. I just hate being awkward.”
“What’s awkward?” He reached between their bodies and brushed a finger over her clit. When she clenched around him, he thought he might come on the spot.
She gave a soft moan before answering, her voice slightly breathless, “The fact that you had to stop. Because I—”
“I haven’t stopped.” He caught her earlobe between his teeth, sucked the soft curve. “I’m right here.”
“I think I’m nervous,” she blurted out.
“That’s okay. I’m definitely nervous.”
“What are you nervous about?” Her brows were raised, her lips tilted at the corners. And he felt her relax, just a little bit.
“This is very high-stakes for me,” he said gravely. “Since you’re the sexiest woman I’ve ever met, and everything.”
She laughed. “If I were in a demonstrative mood, I might say that you’re the sexiest man I’ve ever met.”
“I already knew that.”
She narrowed her eyes. “You thought you knew that.”
“Nah, I knew. You stare at my chest a lot.”
Ruth gave a gasp of outrage, and Evan muffled it with a kiss, laughing and open-mouthed and clumsy and perfect. She sank her hands into his hair and tugged, and he thought nothing could feel so divine as Ruth pulling him closer, needing him. Then she wrapped a leg around his waist, and he felt her open for him, just a little, and sank deeper.
She gasped against his mouth. It wasn’t a pained gasp, but achingly sweet and hungry. Evan reached between them again and found the swollen nub of her clit, massaging with his thumb. And then he waited as she moaned, as she whimpered, as she tilted her hips and pulled him deeper with each languid movement.
Evan maintained his control, reined himself in, until he was completely buried inside her. Silken heat surrounded him, caressing his cock, ratcheting up his lust, but still he kept his head. He kissed her, hard, as he began to move—slowly, so slowly. His tongue slid against hers with all the frenzy that his hips could not display. He wouldn’t hurt her. He wouldn’t hurt her.
Then she sank her nails into his shoulder and moaned, “Harder.”
Evan swallowed roughly. “Are you sure—?”
“Fuck, yes, I’m sure.” She arched against him, pushing her breasts into his chest. “Please. I need…” She trailed off with a gasp as he twisted his hips, driving into her with more force. “That. I need that. Fuck.”
He grasped her arse, tilting her hips up, holding her in place. And then he let his control slip.
“Oh my God,” she hissed, thrusting up to meet him, throwing her head back. Evan grunted as he pounded into her, every movement punctuated by the satisfying smack of flesh against flesh. Sweat dripped down his brow as he gritted his teeth, because Jesus, fuck, he wanted to come, but the look of ecstasy on Ruth’s face wasn’t something he could bear to take away.
“Evan,” she chanted, her voice shaking as he slammed into her. “Evan. Fuck, don’t stop.”
“You feel so fucking good,” he panted. “I can’t stop. I want you forever.” He wasn’t making any fucking sense and he knew it. He could barely understand his own ragged speech, and he didn’t care.
Ruth didn’t care either, because she leaned up and caught his mouth with hers, teeth grazing his lips, tongue thrusting against his. And then she came, so suddenly and so explosively that Evan couldn’t have held back if he’d tried. She convulsed beneath him, her cries breathless and throaty, her cunt tightening around his cock, and his vision blurred.
“Ruth.” He shuddered over her, burying his face against her throat as he came, the sudden release so