got angry for a different reason.
That’s why Grave didn’t want to go check on her. Because she had drugged him. That’s why he wasn’t nice when she cried in his lap on her bathroom floor. That’s why she had said she was sorry. He knew what she did.
Why didn’t he tell me? Was he embarrassed? He let me stand there and slap him over and over while I blamed him for being an addict. I know Grave has a past with drugs, but I never saw him high. I found it so off that he was always hanging out with me and then dumped me for her and drugs that night. And instead of questioning him about it, I turned on him.
We pull into the Kings compound and I park the car in his roundabout driveway. Not bothering with the garage. He gets out of the car before I can even help him. I walk behind him up his stone steps with my hands up hoping he doesn’t fall down them. He unlocks the front door and slams it shut behind us.
“Here.” I grab his left arm and throw it over my shoulders before he can even protest and start up the stairs to his second story.
I kick his bedroom door open and walk him to the adjoining master bathroom. He leans up against the white marble countertop. “You can take my car,” he states.
I look at him in the mirror. “What?”
His blue eyes meet mine. “You can drive my car home. I’ll have someone come get it tomorrow.”
“Grave …”
“You don’t have to stay here with me. I’m fine.” He turns his back to me and starts to walk over to his glass shower that sits over in the corner of his overly large bathroom. It has three sides made from nothing but glass so you can see inside of it.
I bow my head and let out a long breath. “I understand you’re mad at me. I’m sorry for turning my back on you.”
“I’m not mad,” he says softly.
I look up at him through my lashes. “You should be.”
He runs his left hand through his hair, keeping his back to me. “I hurt you. I lied to you. I did everything that I didn’t want to do … to you.”
I walk up to him and place my hands on his back. He stiffens at the touch. I immediately pull away. “I shouldn’t have assumed the worst.”
He turns around. His eyes scan mine for a second before he looks away. “I’m an addict, April.” My chest tightens at his confession. Hearing others say it just isn’t the same as him admitting it. “You were right.” His eyes come back to mine. “They are all right. You deserve better than me.”
“I was wrong,” I argue.
“No, you weren’t,” he says, and I fist my hands.
He’s going to push me away. It’s what I did to him. “Don’t do this.” I shake my head.
“Do what?”
“Stop!” I order, getting angry with him. Myself. “Quit pretending you don’t know what’s going on here.”
His blue eyes glare down at me. “You may go,” he states, dismissing me as though I’m nothing to him. As if the last month didn’t happen.
I snort at his words. “I’m not leaving.”
“April …” he growls. “Turn around and walk away. You did it before without even thinking about it.”
“I thought you cheated on me,” I snap defensively.
“I fucking did,” he yells.
“You thought she was me,” I argue.
“And that makes you forgive me?” He snorts. “Thought you deserved better than that?”
I slap him across the face and instantly regret it when I see my handprint burning red on his cheek. “I’m sorry,” I whisper, my hands cupping my face as tears sting my eyes.
“Aren’t you tired of lying to yourself?” he asks. “Because I’m tired of doing it.” He hangs his head, shaking it.
“Grave …” I choke on his name.
“Leave, April.” With that, he turns his back on me and opens the shower door to turn on the water.
I hang my head; the first tear runs down my cheek as I turn and exit his bathroom. I close the door behind me and lean back against it. My legs unable to move. My mind screaming not to make the same mistake twice. Emilee told me to communicate, and Jasmine told me to fight if I want it. And I know now more than ever that I want him. We made mistakes. I can admit that. That doesn’t mean I want to give up.
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