Frostbite (The Dragonian, #3) - Adrienne Woods Page 0,52
rested softly on his chest and it felt warm. I opened my eyes and found his lips and nose inches away from mine, then he grunted and pulled himself out of the lake.
A feeling so tense jolted through my body. I didn’t know what it was. It was a sadness mixed with anger, why was he doing this?
I climbed out after him and felt as if I was going to breathe fire. “What, I’m not good enough for you, is that it?” The words just came out. They sounded harsh and for a second I wished I’d never said anything.
He turned around and a huge crease pulled both his eyebrows together.
“It’s like I can’t even count how many times that happens, Blake. What are you trying to do?”
“Nothing, Elena. It’s stupid and I shouldn’t have done that.”
“I don’t get you. Surely you can see being with me makes you sort of calm and normal, Blake. Why are you fighting this? Lucian is dead, he’s never coming back.”
“It’s not about Lucian.”
“Then what?”
“I’m turning evil, Elena. I can’t do this.”
“You won’t as long as we are together,” I yelled, as if me raising my voice might get through to him. “Can’t you feel that?”
“Feel what?”
“You’re different when you’re here, with me. Hell I feel that even. I feel funny when I don’t spend time with you every day.”
“In what way?” He frowned and his tone sounded surprised.
“Like the dark becomes too much, but the minute you’re near, it goes away. C’mon Blake I know you feel it too.”
He shook his head. “I don’t, Elena.”
I swallowed hard.
“The dark is getting stronger. I will turn, no one is going to claim me.”
“You can’t say that.”
“Yes, I can!” The old Blake started to make his appearance again.
I shook my head and stared at the ground.
“I think it’s time to tell you why I’m helping you.”
I looked at him.
“You ever wondered how Paul found those Elementals so fast?”
“Yeah, he said that danger was coming, but instead it was already upon us.”
“He’s right, but it wasn’t in the form of the hippogriff or him. It’s me.”
“Blake!” I stroked my face hard.
“Don’t Elena. Am I the only one that can see this?” He sounded angry, even a bit defeated. “When the Elementals vanished with him, you turned. It didn’t make much sense, but when you started turning into a Rubicon, putting two and two together was easy.”
“What does me becoming a Rubicon have to do with anything?”
“I trained you for a reason.”
“And what reason is that?”
“So when I turn you can kill me!”
HE EARTH AND everything around me felt as if it was being pulled from under me. “Are you insane? I’m not going to kill you.”
“You have no choice Elena. I don’t want to destroy my home, or the people I care for. The Rubicon doesn’t give a shit about any of them. When he fully takes control of me, I will no longer be. It will only be him.” Tears glistened in his eyes. “I don’t want to belong to Goran.”
“He’s trapped behind Etan.”
“And I would find a way to free him. I’m sure you know more or less what it is our blood contains.”
I nodded.|
“Believe me, I would do anything to free him from Etan,” he said softly. He lifted his head and stared at me with those peacock-blues. “That can never happen. We will destroy this world.”
We just stared at one another for a short while. His eyes were filled with begging. My mind searched desperately for other ways than me killing him. “There has to be another way, someone will claim you.”
“No one is going to claim me!” He took a huge breath and closed his eyes to calm down. “I made peace with that, you have to promise me…”
My hand struck his face. “NO! I WILL NOT KILL YOU. I LOVE YOU.”
His eyes flew open and the look in them changed from begging, soft, to hard and angry. I felt regret for finally admitting it, but I decided not to take it back. I did love him, the part that was kind and the part that was fighting to hold on, fighting to stay good.
“I told you not to fall in love with me. I specifically said that the first time we started with this.” He spoke through a clenched jaw.
“Well you didn’t make it easy for me, Blake.”
“I was being nice, Elena.”
“Oh and those almost couple of kisses we shared?” A small sarcastic laugh escaped my lips.