Fox started to ask, his eyes straying to the living room that was now strewn with bodies and washed in red.
“I think so. I need to check the rest of the house so no one can report us to Damon or follow us.”
“Oh,” was all Fox could manage. His brain was slogging through a dark marsh. What he was seeing didn’t match up to the things he thought he knew. It was all a mess. He needed air. Away from this.
Winter kept one hand tight on his arm as if he were the only thing holding Fox upright while the other cupped his cheek again. He tilted Fox’s head up to meet his eyes. The frigid cold was gone and he was looking into the eyes of the man who’d held him after sex. The man he knew. Or thought he knew.
“Fox, baby, can you remember how to get to the SUV?” Winter asked so gently, Fox wanted to just close his eyes and roll up in that voice.
“I think so.”
“Good. I need you to head to the SUV.”
Fox blinked, his heart picking up for a new reason. “Where are you going?” He didn’t want to be separated from Winter. There was so much that didn’t make sense, but Winter was his one source of sanity in all of this mess right now. Even if that in itself didn’t make a damn bit of sense.
“Just to check the house. I’ll be right behind you.”
“But—”
“Right behind you,” he repeated. “We’ll go home, and we’ll talk. I promise. About everything and anything you need to talk about.”
He liked how Winter said it. Anything he needed to talk about. Not wanted. Fox didn’t want to think or talk about anything they’d learned or seen tonight. But there was so much they needed to discuss, and none of it was good.
“Promise?” Fox said, hating the fractured quality of that single word.
“Yes, I promise.”
With that, he found the strength to turn and walk out the front door. He didn’t jog this time. It was all he could do to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
He knew he should be upset about watching this incredible man who was slowly crawling his way into his heart dismantle nearly a dozen vampires with cold, ruthless violence. But he wasn’t. He was upset by the violence of it all, but he was well aware that they would have happily killed Winter. They were plotting to destroy his entire family!
No, Fox couldn’t summon any sympathy for them.
That was the disturbing part of it all. He didn’t feel bad for them. They’d brought death on themselves.
His main concern was if Damon was right. Would Fox destroy the Variks simply by being among them? If that was true, he needed to leave immediately.
But that would mean ending Winter’s peaceful rest from the ghosts.
It would mean never being held in his arms again.
He was not ready to let go of Winter. Not yet. Maybe not ever.
Chapter 20
Winter stood in the shower, letting the hot water pour over him, washing away the blood that had coated him from head to toe. The heat and pressure helped to ease tense muscles and a few lingering aches, but it did nothing to erase the image of Fox huddled in the SUV on the ride back to the loft. He’d been covered in blood and staring off into space, lost somewhere in his thoughts. It had taken Winter two tries to get Fox out of the SUV and up to his own bedroom to get cleaned up.
His preference had been to pull Fox into the shower with him, but he wasn’t sure if the witch could handle that kind of intimacy after watching Winter slaughter eleven vampires in a matter of minutes.
Fox should have never seen that.
He should have run out of the house, been out of that damn place before Luke’s body hit the floor.
But things went to shit too fast.
Closing his eyes, Winter tried to tell himself that it was better this way. Fox needed to know the truth about him. The whole truth. Winter Varik was a killer. He’d murdered countless vampires to protect his family. And he would go on protecting his family until his life finally ended.
Since meeting Fox, he’d been kept in this protective bubble of lies. He’d seen only a little sliver of Winter. The man who liked a quiet night in his house playing video games and laughing with his brothers. A man who talked about