cuttin roses for the parlor n dinin room.
I walked right up to her and said, 'That was a boogery thing you done, firin that girl like that.'
She stood up and give me her haughtiest lady-of-the-manor look. 'Do you think so? I'm so glad you have your opinion, Dolores. I crave it, you know; each night when I go to bed, I lie there in the dark, reviewing the day and asking the same question as each event passes before my eyes: "What would Dolores St George have done?"'
Well, that made me madder'n ever. 'I'll tell you one thing Dolores Claiborne don't do,' I says, 'and that's take it out on someone else when she's pissed off and disappointed about somethin. I guess I ain't enough of a high-riding bitch to do that.'
Her mouth dropped open like somebody'd pulled the bolts that held her jaw shut. I'm pretty sure that was the first time I really surprised her, and I marched away in a hurry, before she could see how scared I was. My legs were shakin so bad by the time I got into the kitchen that I had to sit down and I thought, You're crazy, Dolores, tweakin her tail like that. I stood up enough to peek out the window over the sink, but her back was to me and she was workin her shears again for all she was worth; roses were fallin into her basket like dead soldiers with bloody heads.
I was gettin ready to go home that afternoon when she come up behind me and told me to wait a minute, she wanted to talk to me. I felt my heart sink all the way into my shoes. I hadn't no doubt at all that my time'd come - she'd tell me my services wouldn't be required anymore, give me one last Kiss-My-Back-Cheeks stare, and then down the road I'd go, this time for good. You'd think it'd been a relief to get shut of her, and I s'pose in some ways it woulda been, but I felt a pain around my heart just the same. I was thirty-six, I'd been workin hard since I was sixteen, and hadn't never been fired from a job. Just the same, there's some kinds of buggerybullshit a person has to stand up to, and I was tryin with all my might to get ready to do that when I turned around to look at her.
When I saw her face, though, I knew it wasn't firin she'd come to do. All the makeup she'd had on that mornin was scrubbed off, and the way her eyelids were swole up gave me the idear she'd either been takin a nap or cryin in her room. She had a brown paper grocery sack in her arms, and she kinda shoved it at me. 'Here,' she says.
'What's this?' I ast her.
'Two eclipse-viewers and two reflector-boxes,' she says. 'I thought you and Joe might like them. I happened to have -, She stopped then, and coughed into her curled-up fist before lookin me square in the eye again. One thing I admired about her, Andy - no matter what she was sayin or how hard it was for her, she'd look at you when she said it. 'I happened to have two extras of each,' she said.
'Oh?' I says. 'I'm sorry to hear that.'
She waved it away like it was a fly, then ast me if I'd changed my mind about goin on the ferry with her n her comp'ny.
'No,' I says, 'I guess I'll put up m'dogs on my own porch rail n watch it with Joe from there. Or, if he's actin out the Tartar, I'll go down to East Head.'
'Speaking of acting out the Tartar,' she says, still lookin right at me, 'I want to apologize for this morning. . . and ask if you'd call Mabel Jolander and tell her I've changed my mind.'
It took a lot of guts for her to say that, Andy -you didn't know her the way I did, so I guess you'll just have to take my word for it, but it took an awful lot of guts. When it came to apologizin, Vera Donovan was pretty much of a teetotaler.
Chapter Eleven
'Sure I will,' I said, speakin kind of gentle. I almost reached out n touched her hand, but in the end I didn't. 'Only it's Karen, not Mabel. Mabel worked here six or seven years ago. She's in New Hampshire these days, her