say one last thing, ma’am, and then I’ll be on my way.”
She waited.
“If a man commits a certain kind of crime,” he said, “if he commits a certain kind of offense that is motivated by his sexual impulses, and he gets away with it, then he doesn’t just quit. He doesn’t just call it a day and become an upstanding, law-abiding citizen thereafter. That same impulse—”
Katie Goss raised a hand to stop him, then lowered it again. “I’m familiar with the argument, Sheriff. I just wish you’d made it to some other girl a long time ago.”
“Yes, ma’am. So do I.”
He collected his hat from the empty chair and began to get up.
“Which degree?” she said.
“Ma’am?”
“Which degree would he be charged with?”
He sat down again. “Well, that would depend on a number of things.”
“I know what it would depend on. It wasn’t just contact, Sheriff,” she said, citing the distinction.
And to spare her saying the other word aloud, in her own kitchen—penetration—he said, “I understand that, Miss Goss. It would also depend on whether or not he was armed with a deadly weapon.”
“He was. But he never pulled it. He never threatened me with it.”
Halsey nodded. She’d read the codes carefully. “Then how did you know he was armed?” he said.
“Because he was wearing it on his belt.”
“In plain sight.”
“Yes.”
Halsey opened up his hands again. “If that doesn’t constitute fear of bodily harm I don’t know what does. So there’s three of the conditions for first-degree right there. And that’s just the one statute. Any prosecutor worth their salt would also make the case for criminal sexual predatory conduct, which could tack on another twenty-five percent of jail time.”
“If he goes to jail.”
“If he goes to jail, yes, ma’am.”
“Mommy?” They both looked over. The little girl had come around the pony wall and stood holding a plastic Appaloosa by its hind legs.
“Yes, baby?”
“I’m hungry.”
“All right, we’re gonna eat in just one minute.”
“I believe that’s my cue,” said Halsey, getting to his feet. “Miss Goss, I’ve said what I came to say. I appreciate you hearing me out.”
She rose too and walked him to the door. She opened the door and he stepped out and put his hat on and tipped it to her in farewell and turned to go.
“Sheriff,” she said, and he turned back. The little girl had come to stand next to her again, to watch him go. To make sure he went, maybe.
“Yes, ma’am?”
Katie Goss held his eyes. “Aren’t you supposed to give me your card? In case I want to get ahold of you?”
Halsey hesitated—and stepped back to her. “Yes, ma’am. I’ve got one right here.”
58
The wood he’d brought her burned most of the night but in the morning the logs were down to their smoky bones, and she lay under the blankets watching them pulse in the drafts, the tossing thread of smoke, before sitting up finally and pushing the blankets off. She hurt just everywhere. It was hard to swallow and when she did she tasted the river.
Weak light of dawn in the windows. Her wet clothes, her boots, her father’s jacket, lay on the floor like a scene from some frantic disrobing, which it was—her hands almost too numb to make the fire, to flick the flintwheel, her body spasming, and she should go upstairs and take a hot shower but she didn’t want water on her skin, she wanted the fire and the blankets, and finally the flame took and the kindling crackled and the firewood burned bright and hot as she lay shaking under the blankets—she remembered all of that.
And she remembered Moran, fighting him on the river . . . and going under the ice. Drifting, pulled along in the current, the wobbling moon following overhead. The feel of the underside of the ice. The girls of the river. Caroline . . . But how had she gotten home?
Then she remembered the birds—two ducks, drake and hen, crying and beating their wings in panic and dragging tails of light behind them, pieces of light falling back to earth as the dark shapes climbed the sky.
But before that . . . Before that there’d been a different kind of light—not the light of the moon but a yellow light trembling like a thin cloth, like silk—and the light was stuck, the yellow light wasn’t moving and she was going toward it, her fingers tracing the ice, but when she reached the yellow light her fingers fell through it, tearing it, and