why he’s chosen to tell me.
“Fate’s sake, Camden. Are you that dense?” I’ve been called a lot of things throughout my life. All those years I spent traveling the world looking for my brother. Bed-hopping in between leads. Dense isn’t one of those names, though.
“I’m not in the mood for games.”
Whit steps forward until we’re practically touching and shuts the door behind him, closing us into the small space where his scent fills my lungs. It’s so male and so very him. “I’ve had a crush on you since you first came to the pack,” he confesses. “No one has held my attention like you have.”
I stand dumbfounded. He’s had a crush on me? I’ve been sleeping with who knows how many others since I’ve come to the pack and all the while Whit wanted me? I’m so not worthy of him.
Whit’s eyes start to get that bright sheen before he cries and my heart shatters. “I shouldn’t have told you. I ruined our friendship, didn’t I?” I’m officially the world’s biggest jerk.
“No, you could never do that.”
Without thinking, I reach forward and pull Whit into my arms. He drops his cheek onto my shoulder as his hair teases along my neck. He grips the back of my shirt. My hand moves up and down his back in a soothing motion.
“I’m sorry,” I say softly. “You shocked me, that’s all. I didn’t know what to say.”
“I’m sure I’m nothing like the males you’ve been with in the past. I’m a virgin, for fate’s sake. Cas was my first kiss. How pathetic is that?” And the rage is back burning brightly in my body. I tense, causing Whit to lift his head. “I knew this was a mistake.” He tries to pull away, but I don’t let him.
“I’m not mad at you,” I tell him honestly. “It’s the fact that your first kiss was with him. It should have been with someone else. Someone who cares about you. Someone who sees how special you are.” I’m those things but I cut myself short. I wasn’t his first kiss. And I’m nowhere near good enough to be his first anything else.
The door to the room bangs open as Echo and Thay file in. “Get a room,” Thay mutters with a smirk as he shoulders past us.
“Now that you’ve talked, can we move on and actually shoot at the other team next time?” Echo asks.
Whit and I break apart as the rest of the team comes in. I roll my eyes at Echo and move to put my tan boots on. They’re the ones I wear most of the time. I’m not a sneakers kind of male. The fact that I was ready to leave here before with no shoes on says a lot for where my mind was.
My eyes meet Whit’s across the small space as he reaches for his clothes. Our conversation may have been interrupted but our discussion is far from over.
12
Whitlock
“Fate,” I cover my eyes. I’m lying on my bed with Caspian on one side and Titus on the other. The two males who know me better than anyone else. “I messed up, didn’t I?”
“I don’t think so,” Titus says. “It’s never a mistake to be honest. Now he knows.”
It’s the day after everything went down with Cam, when I poured my heart out and said things I never thought I’d have the courage to utter. Caspian stopped by to say hi, and once Titus found out, he came to my room. The two of them remained close after everything happened with the fires and Caspian joined the fire company Titus is a member of. He’s no longer part of it.
I decided to spill my guts and tell them I came out to Cam and told him how I’ve had a huge crush on him. They both knew already. Not from me telling them but from watching Cam and me when we’re in front of each other. Of course, I couldn’t tell them the situation in which I told Cam about me. So, I made up a story about him and me talking in his room and I blurted it out. Same end result.
There’s so much I love about being part of the team. The only part I hate is hiding it from those I’m close to, though I understand why I have to. Caspian would want to join. Titus definitely would. But he has enough to worry about. If he were part of the team, on top of